My Best Friends Brother // Supernatural

Chapter 36

I wake up feeling fully rested, Sam is still fast asleep with his giant legs on top of me. I try to turn but he's got me in a death grip "Sam stop get the hell off of me" I say pushing him off of me. He opens his eyes and blinks a few seconds before realising what he's doing, he pushes me away too hard and I slip off the side of the bed landing painfully on my back. I groan loudly, the door snaps open and Dean stands in the doorway staring at us, he bursts into a fit of laughter "What the hell are you laughing at?" I ask, he takes a deep breath and puts both hands on his waist doubling forward slightly "What the hell happened?" He asks mirroring my own words

"Sam has no sense of personal space" I groan getting up to my feet and pushing past Dean to go brush my teeth, I go straight downstairs for a blood bag but everyone else seems to be in their own rooms, except for Dean who joins me on the couch "Sam knows about us," I say looking into his eyes, Dean raises an eyebrow at me, "I thought we weren't supposed to tell him" Dean replies "I didn't have to, he already knew about it. Just needed the confirmation which I gave him, except I didn't know what to say other than we were hooking up" I say "Is it too soon to ask what we are?" I ask "Regina, I spent the past five years waiting for you. Even the time I was in hell, I wished that I knew where exactly you were. I want to be with you, I was never sure of it before. But when I lost you, I knew I never wanted anyone else more than I wanted you" Dean says opening his heart to me

I can't help the smile on my face "So we're um, together? Officially then?" I ask "Yeah, but I have to warn you. I am a lot to handle" Dean says "I think I'm okay with that" I say. Dean leans over and pecks my lips softly "Not on my couch" Bobby complains, we pull away to look at him "Nothing was going to happen on this couch Bobby" I reply "Right. Bunch of idjits" Bobby whispers "Super hearing Robert" I call out to him who's now in the kitchen, Sam comes down stairs too. His eyes instantly fall on us, he smirks "Oh don't look at me like that, I basically asked for your blessing" I say "You always had my blessing, he didn't" Sam says, Dean looks offended "Excuse me?" Dean asks "Considering how you used to be, can you blame him?" I whisper, Dean rolls his eyes but doesn't reply 

I lay down on the couch with my head on Dean's lap "So what will we do today?" I ask, I hear some clattering from the kitchen where Bobby is and I start getting flashbacks. The sound of the knifes ripping throw my flesh, the blood and the weakness that followed, my fear

"Reg?" Sam asks, I snap my head to him "Woah" He says, I notice I've vamped out "Sorry" I say "are you alright?" Dean asks, I sit up "I need some air" I say getting up and walking outside, the fresh air and warm sun feels real, helps me bring myself back to the current reality "You think you can get rid of me this easily?" I hear Ash "You're in my head" I say walking deeper into the junkyard "But I am, real cute you and Dean finally making it official as if this wouldn't end in pain. You know you'll watch them both die while you will continue to be young forever" Ash voice continues to say, I turn around trying to see him "Leave me alone" I growl "Come on Regina you know I'm right" He presses "Everyone you love will die and you will continue to roam this world, alone and bitter" Ash continues

I turn around seeing a shadow, I rush over pinning the person to one of the cars aggressively "Sam?" I ask confused "Who else would it be?" He asks moving my hand away from his jacket "I'm sorry" I say stepping back "Are you getting flashbacks?" He asks "No" I lie "Don't lie to me" Sam says, I walk away and he follows me. I climb up some cars and lay on the roof, he also follows "Are you going to keep following me?" I ask "Of course" Sam replies, I look at him then back up to the bright horizon in front of us "I got Ash tormenting me, but I hate to know the truth in what he says" I whisper "What is he saying?" Sam asks, I turn to him with tears in my eyes 

"One day, you'll be gone, Bobby and Dean. You will all be gone and I, I will remain here. Young forever and alone because apparently I cannot die" 

"you're not going to be alone"

"Of course, I will, who else will stay here with me?"

"I mean you'll have Cas"

I chuckle "Mysterious angel in a trench coat who rescued me to help you save the world?" I ask "Yeah, he's not so bad. A little secretive but not bad" Sam replies "I thought being immortal was going to be so cool, especially doing what we do" I say "You changed your mind?" Sam asks "I never thought about all the other details that came with this, other vamps call this a curse. I always thought it was a gift and now I wish I was human after all" I admit "I don't want to keep living after you two pass on" I admit "I want a marriage, I want to be a mom. And I'll never be able to have those things" I say "Because I am already dead and I will be forever" I say, I laugh and Sam stares at me before joining in 

"This is pathetic" I say laughing harder 

"We will cross that bridge when we get to it, for now. Keeping seeing this as a gift" Sam says, I nod agreeing "You're right, I need to focus. On helping you dumbasses get rid of this damn apocalypse"