Starless Sky (Constellation Series #1)

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Life sucks

Bakit sa dinami dami ng pwedeng magustuhan sa Mundo ay sya pa ang napili nitong pasaway kong puso? Ang tanga lang!

Yung tipong abot kamay ko nga pero hindi ko naman makuha, it's frustrating!

Like putangina? Hindi ba pwedeng gustuhin nya na lang din ako? Crush back ba ganun!

I just want to be loved too, because I'm tired of giving my all. I'm not the type of person who's always complaining, it was just.....

I'm tired

Laki ako sa hirap, wala akong sinisisi dahil ito lang naman talaga kami, noong bata pa ako ay nagrereklamo ako kay Nanay at Tatay kapag tuyo lang ang ulam namin. I wasn't thinking that time, I was just a little kid. Sa tuwing naaalala ko kung paano ako sumisimangot sa mga magulang ko dahil hindi masarap ang ulam namin ay sobrang nilalamon ako ng konsensya ko.

Hindi ko man lang naisip ang pagod nila, ang pagsasaka ng tatay sa gitna ng tubigan kahit sobrang tirik ng init at ang pagka kanda kuba naman ng Inay sa paglalabada para lamang mabuhay kaming mga anak nila.

I had no friends back then, I was afraid they might judge me once they found out about my life. I only believe in the philosophical discussions of friendship.

For me friends are not just someone who I can talk to when I'm bored and company when I'm alone.

Imperfect friendships are narrow because they are founded on impermanent things, such as beauty, wealth, or common interests. The relationship ends when one or both sides no longer feel it pleasant or beneficial. That's completely my reason not to make friends.

But then, Sky Kiefer Monfero happens.

Simula noong unang pag-uusap naming dalawa ay nag palaboy-laboy na sya sa sistema ko. My views of friendship changed, I suddenly swallowed all my words regarding having a friend, not just a friend, but a best friend instead.

According to Aristotle, there are three types of friendships, the Friendships of pleasure, Friendships of utility, and Friendships of virtue.

We have reasons to love our friends in these diverse types of relationships based on pleasure, utility, and virtue.

Friendships of pleasure are friendships based on enjoyment of a shared activity and the pursuit of fleeting pleasures and emotions. This is the main reason kung bakit hindi ko magawang aminin ang nararamdaman ko sa best friend ko sa loob ng pitong taon naming pagsasama. Ayaw kong dumating ang araw na hindi na namin kayang maging masaya sa isa't-isa, ayokong mawala ang mga nakasanayan naming gawin at kahit sobra syang magbigay ng mixed signals sa akin ay hindi ko pa rin gugustuhin na mawala ang koneksyon sa aming dalawa. Parang hindi ko kakayanin.

Friendships of utility are the friendships that are based on what the two people involved can do for one another, and often have little to do with the other individual as a person at all. Sky never failed me to feel valued, kaya nga siguro hanggang ngayon ay palihim pa din akong humahanga sa kaniya not as a friend but as a man. He was a caring gentleman and named it.

Friendships of virtue are the people you like for themselves, the people who push you to be a better person. That's Sky, it's always him. Wala namang bago, 7 years and still him. There were countless times I almost gave up but as a superhero as always. He would come and lift me up, he kept on pushing me to go on and let me rest on him until I recharge again.

He's a man I asked God for.

I have him, yet I couldn't claim him.

"Estella?" I flinched when I heard him call me. I am comfortably pressing my cheek against his back. I ain't wearing a helmet dahil hindi nya daw nadala ang akin, pinapa suot niya sa akin ang kaniya pero tumanggi ako dahil mas delikado sya, nung una ay ayaw pang pumayag pero napilit ko pa rin.