I realized I no longer missed you when I realized I didn't think about you for the first three days straight.
Well, that's not necessarily true
I did, your name, your face randomly popping into my head but not at the forefront
My heart didn't hammer in my chest as your face started to take shape
Instead, I took a breath and let it go
I don't miss you anymore
Well, I don't miss you as much
I don't write in my journal about you
Except to say I haven't thought about you all day
And I don't leave empty pages for you anymore
Because I got a new journal, there are 97 pages left for you
I don't miss you anymore
I don't look at your social media
I've been distracting myself because even when I have you blocked, I can't help myself
But, I did it
My thumbs haven't clicked on your profile for three days
I don't miss you anymore
I'm healing
I'm finding my peace
I'm picking up the sharp jagged pieces that lay in a hazardous pile at my feet
Day by day trying to figure out what life's going to hand me next
What new things I can achieve without you
And I don't miss you anymore
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
My Head's Above Water
PuisiLosing the one you thought you'd have forever will really put things into perspective. Life and death, love and hate, the old and the new. Lay back and relax, we're getting over a heartbreak one miserable poem after the other.
