I'm sorry, you were never supposed to get hurt
I know, I've said it before, but I finally hear you, I see you, I know now
I heard your cries of pain as you broke on the dirty bathroom floor
I heard your screams as you gave up on your life, the whole thing useless
I watched your skies open up, raining daggers through your heart
I watched your oceans thrash and rise over your head and drag you under
I watched you struggle beneath the surface, bubbles floating up as you sink further
I sat back and watched, slowly roughening the seas until you've been discarded miles away, stumbling through seaweed, trying to find the way home
I'm sorry, I look back now, seeing the ways you broke, the ways I broke you, and I beat myself down
I have no more bullshit excuses
I take accountability, and I'm sorry
You have no reason to believe it,
No reason to accept it
I wouldn't blame you if you didn't, if you rolled your eyes and swiped away, not giving this a second thought
But, I don't need you to accept it or forgive me
It won't change what has happened
Just read my words and let me explain the best I can
With the only resource I have left
Read it and try to understand that I understand what I've done
YOU ARE READING
My Head's Above Water
PoetryLosing the one you thought you'd have forever will really put things into perspective. Life and death, love and hate, the old and the new. Lay back and relax, we're getting over a heartbreak one miserable poem after the other.
