Paper Memories

Chapter 31-III

Chapter 31-III

          "You should get some sleep, Hon."

"Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang hilig mo makialam, Percival." Something glinted on Percival's eyes as he stand beside me as I gaze our pet fishes. I wasn't sure what emotion it was. Galit? Pangdidiri? Wala akong pakialam. Yun lang naman ang magagawa niya sa sinabi ko.. "Hindi ka naman apektado."

" Yan ba ang sinasabi mo sa lahat ng sumasalunggat sayo?"

"You don't have a say on this-----all you do is nag and watch." I frankly told him as I poke the aquarium in front of me, noong isa lang bumili ulit kami ng pet fishes para dito. It's peaceful watching this creatures than my fake boyfriend." Nagiging pareho ka na naman kay Ralph------puro dada lang."

He sighed. "What would it take for you to stop?"

His words just went pass my ears. Then an idea popped my head.I tear open the last packet of drugs that I have. Pinaghahalo ko lahat pinatagong drugs ni Nabi at mga nakuha ko mula sa iba. Pinapanood ko ang paglangoy ng mga isda. May mabilis. May manabagal." Percival, maybe you don't realize this, but you're also fucking a threat. I'm the one who should be scared of you---- you're just a mere stranger pretending to be my prince charming, while I'm just the damsel in distress."

He glance at my act."But your sins are your sins."

I slowly empty the packet."Maiba ako, ayos na ba si Ronald?"

When I was about to step away, Percival block me." "Please stop, just leave him alone. Quit this acting like this, he's not making you mad. Tama na yung pag-arte mo na nagsisi at nag-aalala ka kung kailan tapos mo na siyang saktan."

"He's in your room in the guest room, right?"

"J-just go to sleep, Sheena." Naririnig ko pagbilis ng paglangoy ng mga isda at ang pagtama nila sa salamin ng munting mundo nila. Nabigla si Percival dahil dun, nagawa niyang manood lang. "Hayaan mo na yung bata."

"Why is it my fault and not his?"

"May nasasaktan ka na, p-please I can't sugarcoat this anymore."

I shook head harshly, hindi ako masamang tao. "I didn't mean to hurt anyone, it's just the heat of the moment. I'm not having fun will all of this. Things just got worse for since that MatthaeusXXVII resurface my issue last year! And to add to that, that freak is my stalker! They're messing with my head. Biglang nawala ang taong yun. Parang ikaw minsan. Ah, o baka ikaw yun? At d-dahil sa kanya sa iba ko naibunton ang galit ko-----si Ronald yung nanjan."

Percival's face darken." You hit him before that."

"Why the hell are you counting?" Asik ko.

"I just don't want to hear you lie longer-----he's not the only one you hurt." I'm done listening to him so I turn around to go up to my room . Baka nga pwede na akong magpahinga, natutunaw sa loob ng aquarium ang drugs."Akala ko gusto mong manahimik na at palipasin na lang ang nangyari, pero wala kang gustong lubayang tao sa university mo. You can stomach drugging your entire school? Huh?"

"Ang hilig mo talaga gumawa ng fairy tales."

"You've done everything you're being accused of."

I was walking on the stairs, nakabuntot lang si Percival. Shit, I don't want him nearer me, so I bolted to rooftop so he can't corner me."Well,I'd admit what happened with Ronald but---in the university? No way. Don't give me so much credit, I can't do that. Kaya nga ako outcasted sa amin, hindi ba? Hindi malinis ang pangalan ko, madali akong masisi sa mga bagay na hindi ko ginawa."