We'll Run When the Rain Stop's (One Direction Fan Story)

Flashing Back to the Good Ol' Smartass times of Olivia Chp 23(not Edited)

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hey you guy's, i know i haven't uploaded anything for a couple of day's because i have had strep-so that meant-no talking-no doing anything. and i about DIED! and i was gone all weekend also up in Chesterfield for my sister's Dance Comp for about 3 days and my friend Madison was there too so we caused Havockoo in the hotel-which was hilarouis! and we also discoverd.....Alexander Ludwig who is playing Cato in the Hunger Games. one word: Oh My Jesus. Madison near fainted and i was shellshocked.

eating Ton's of Viamin C(ORANGES!!) and reading Hunger Games Mag's,

ThatOlivia

Where there is no struggle, there is no strength.
- Oprah Winfrey -

Life only demands from you the strength you possess. Only one feat is possible - not to have run away.
- Dag Hammarskjold -

 He who gains a victory over other men is strong; but he who gains a victory over himself is all powerful.
- Lao Tzu -

Olivia:

 Anger. that's the first thing I feel other than numbness. I pass through the rest of the school day collecting my Homework and giving people fake smiles and laughs,Madison didn't ask twice about my sudden mood change and niether did the rest of the girl's,I guess i'm becoming a better actress than i thought. "Livy?are you going home?" Madison askes after 7th hour-leaning back against my rusty locker,fliding around with her thumbs looking obvouisly bored(she wasn't in the greatest mood after the asembly and the nurse telling Madison that she 'exploding turds' didn't count as a real excuse to go home)(TOLD HER!). "No" she stops and looks back up at me, concern filling in her big baby blues, "are you okay?". "No" what? i not about to start lying now and try saving Madison from my fury that was itching to come out. "what happened" "nothing that i do not want to talk about-and if i don't get out of here i'm going to lose it here,right now and right here." "shit!" "LIVY! MADISON!" oh wonderful,our screaming banshee is back...along with him. "Livy..." "take my stuff home please-unless you want to clean up Screaming Banshee's blood from the floor-which i dont think you could anyway-you're too little to handel that big ol' mop" she rolles her eyes at me and pushes off the lockers,her eyes looking between me and the hallway. "oh haha, i can see  your humor is still intact" "won't it ever be? unless i go completley mental like i have a feeling i'm about too on either A.) you or B.) that poster over there that say's A Night to Remeber" "LIVY! Come On! I'm HUNGRYA! COME ON!" Lou turns the corner and grins evily at me, four other heads pop around the corner too and my heart slams against my ribs. Liam smiles brightly at me and takes a long stride towards me. Go livy, now. my fingers tighten around my bag and Madison gives me a small smile(she is one of the few people to see me flip out,she's got a scar on her left shoulder from one night when i got angry and nicked her on the shoulder with a Fencing sword(dont ask how that left a scar,we do not know))"Hey Liv-how was class today?" Niall askes pulling a Dazed looking Ebony behind him(guess their realationship is going pretty well*wink*. Ebony turns and stops, her eyes meeting mine and my stomach rolles. she knew, she saw Him and that Girl-and yet she came here into my own mental danger zone. "go" i mouth at her, trying to give her a warning ahead of time. she nodds and whispers something into Niall's ear,he looks over at me and nodds back at Ebony. she tuggs on his hand and they walk down the other hallway near her locker. okay-so two people down, another 3 to go. "ah, Madison? can you go down to the science room and see if i left my phone in there? i think i dropped it into the empty sink at station 5" she gives me a 'are you serouislly joking me' look and her eyes drop down at my phone in my jean pocket. i glare at her and give her a 'go.now.' look/mental order. she nudges her head over to where Liam stode looking at those blasted prom posters asking me a silent question. i nodd and she turns to Lou, "lou? can you please come with me to the science room? i don't want to go alone...actully will both of you come with me? dont want to possibly get kidnapped, maybe if i do,both of you can sing him to death,or at least scream till his eardrums burst" Lou laughs and noddes at her too, grabbing ahold of Liam's arm,"come on Mate, let's go get out Mach-o- on" "but-i need to talk to-" "go with her and make sure she's okay" i growl at him, not looking up or meeting him in the eyes. he looks at me,worriness clear as a crystal on his face but goes with Lou and Jr, not happily. "we've got to talk later" he whispers in my left ear and i try to nodd at him but even the pain in my heart resictes me from that. "okay" whatever you-. they walk around the corner and finally i let the anger in me break lose, my bottle inside me cracking and strong emtions rumble through my shaking body and i toss my backpack across the hall. papers,books,pencils,pens everything falles out and strandes around the hallway. i do not care. "GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!" my mouth opens up and a lion like roar bursts from my lips and tears spring to my eyes, but none fall-not this time.this time,saddness wasn't rulling my body/mind but anger was,something that was probably worse. WHAT THE HELL!!!!! "GAH!" i shierk pulling my left arm back and punching my metal locker, the stiches in my left arm start to bead up with blood and the resurring pain burns-reminding me that i wasn't evetiable(like Superman)-that i was still human and could still feel pain(very much Pain at that,ahhhh my ARM! damn it, i need a radioactive spider!). unlike my heart was at this moment, another punch to the locker-another kick and another round of cries and finally my body screams at my brain, ordering me to stop acting like a two year old and punching a freaking locker to get my anger out. 'write it out, it'll help' Ebony's words brush across from my meormy and as soon as i walk over to grab a pencil and paper, my anger comes again,seninding another painful round of heartbreak and the meromy of the photo to come knocking again.the pencil in my hand snaps in half and the paper ripping in half. it seems like my brain and mermory are my own worse enemy,i snort and shake my head. wow Livy Mature-snapping a pencil in half and riping a piece of paper in half(tree's are gonna have my ass now). a sick twisted laugh bubbles out of my lips and i ask myself a question "what are you doing Olivia?" "acting like a two year old if you want to hear my oppipion". i turn around and Lou smirks at me,leaning against a barrier.oh buddy,what a bad mistake you've made,"Excuse me?". he chuckles and bends down scopping up a handful of Pencil's in his hands. "i said youre acting like a two year old-punching a locker and screaming like a animal. it's quit pitfull" Crackle,Snapple and Pop."oh really? do you know what i've been through today?" me and Lou lock glares and he gives me a small sad smile. "yeah...i saw that today. but punching and kicking isn't going to help you. but also doing what Eb told you too do isn't going to do anything but make you even more angry-pouring youre emitions out onto a piece of paper,being all raw and truthful for everybody to be able to read them and to judge them. it's pretty tough having people judge your true emitions and everything,and you can't do nothing but accpet it or reject it" i snort nasitly at him and cross my arms across my chest, "so what the hell do you want me to do Lou?" "i dont know-youre the olny one that does" the anger whips burns across my brain and my eyes narrow harder at him, "you want to know something? what i still do against Eb's and everybody elses's wishes? i still shove these*points down to my heart* stupid little emtitons into a bottle, i'm trying to look for a way to let some of them out once a while.that's what i'm doing,punching a locker like a*snort*five year old" "ahhh, i can try to understand that,like letting a werewolve out to run for a while? and then to switch back into their human skin-yearinging always to run again?" my head bobs up and down and slowly my anger burns back to a slow burning,i sigh and fall down to the ground holding my head within my shaking hands. god if i can't learn to control myself i'm never going to,"i'm going to lose control one of these day's aren't i?" Lou walks over to me and slids down beside me, wrapping his arm around me. "yes, truthfully you will.but just be careful who's around to witness it. i don't want my pretty face getting messed up by that fist of your'es." "oh ha-ha lou, your so funny. you should be a comdeian" "i should be shouldn't i?" "yes-and you can tour with Niall as your double act"(since that boy can laugh at about anything) he laughs and wiggles his eyebrows at me, "i dont know-i'd rather have you go along with me instead of Him. you've got more fire" "why Mr.Tomlinson? is that a compliement? i'm shocked" i gasp and place a hand over my heart, giving him a fake shocked look. "it can be whatever you want it too be Sweet thang!" he yelles drawing 'sweet thang' in a slow southern drawl, which earnes him a booming laugh from me. "you're so retarded you know it,swweett thang" Lou leans over and pinches my cheeks, pulling the ends of my lips up into a creepy smile. "yes, but i'll do anything to make you smile like this again if i need too" "like a creepy doll?" like chucky? esssh,i sure hope not!  "yepp, like the creepy demon Doll that you truly are"  we laugh and stand up,collecting my stuff from all around the hallway. slowly Madison,Liam,Niall and Nina all come back and Ebony smiles at me-making me feel horrible about botteling my emtitions back up against her wishes,even though all she was trying to do was help me cope. we all gather the last of our stuff and make our way to my car-Niall saying that he had left Zayn,Harry and Lexi all alone in that big house and i told him that they'd better not have blown my house up like Madison almost did in 5th grade with a 'little' teeny tiny chemistry set one night. they all start laughing and Madison jumps to her own defense stating that she didn't know how to work it and that all of the insturctions were in french! i look over at Lou and give him a small hug, "what's that for?" he askes giving me a worried concerned look. i smile and shurg feeling alot better than i had just an hour earlier, "for saving me from myself back there" and i meant it.