Secrets | Park Jimin (completed)

Chapter 20

Tori and Jimin walked back to the apartment together. They didn't really say much to each other, they just walked side by side. It was weird; there was never an awkward silence between them.

Jimin had on a hoodie (I'm not sure what other countries call it, but a jumper with a hood) and he had the hood on his head. Tori had a jumper on that had pocket in the front; she had her hands inside the pockets since it was a bit cool that night.

When they were half way back to the apartment Jimin slowed down and went behind Tori. Tori was confused by Jimin action but he then slipped his hands around Tori's waist and they found their way into her pocket.

Jimin rested his head on Tori's shoulder while trying not to stand on the back of her shoes. Tori smiled as she intertwined her fingers with his inside her pocket.

"Why?" Tori said quietly while still smiling.

"My hands are cold" Jimin said right next to her ear.

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They arrived back to the apartment and Jimin still followed behind Tori. She led him through the kitchen and into her room.

Tori entered first and Jimin walked in after. Tori then closed the door and while doing so Jimin came up behind her, placing his arms around her.

Tori stood, still facing the door as Jimin moved her hair from her neck. He then placed a soft kiss on her. Tori tilted her head the opposite direction and smiled with her eyes closed.

Jimin continued to place kisses on her neck, each one getting slightly sloppier. Tori was enjoying the sensation each kiss brought her, but she didn't know how far she wanted it to go. She was nervous.

Tori slowly spun in Jimin's arms, so now they were face to face. Tori placed her hands on the sides of Jimin's face and looked up into his eyes. Jimin bit his lip, trying to be sexy (which he obviously nailed). He was looking at her eyes then down to her lips.

He leaned in, but she stopped him.

"I can't" she said in a whisper.

Jimin put his forehead to Tori's. "Why?" he asked.

Tori could hear the slight frustration in his voice. 'Dam, this boy must be horny' she thought then smiled slightly. "I just can't Jimin."

Jimin let out a long breath. He then looked at Tori's face. He kissed her on the forehead before letting go of her.

"I'm sorry" Tori said as Jimin turned to sit on the bed, "I just..."

"It's okay Tori, if you don't want to go further we don't have to" Jimin said once he sat down.

Tori looked at him. She felt like she just disappointed him which made her feel bad for backing out. "Do you want to go to sleep?" she asked worried he might walk out.

"Okay" Jimin said with a small smile.

(Jimin's not mad at her btw, she was just nervous cuz they've only known each other for less than a month and been more than friends for like a week.)

Tori grabbed an over-sized T-shirt and went into the bathroom to change. She placed her hands over her face feeling so stupid for doing that to Jimin. 'You're not a virgin, what's the big deal?' She thought as she was changing, 'You like him, he likes you. You're so stupid Tori.'

Once she had finished she slowly walked back into the bedroom. Jimin was still in his jeans but he had taken off his shirt. He was scrolling through his phone but once he saw Tori he turned it off.

Tori then began feeling nervous. It was like they had been planning to have sex and now their cringey plan was coming true. Tori couldn't help but to place her hands over her face.

"Why does this feel so awkward?" she asked still standing with her face covered.

Jimin just smiled at her and walked over to hug her. He kissed her on the head. "Cute" he said. He heard her giggle. They stood for a minute in silence.

"I'm going to get in bed" Tori said as the hug broke still feeling awkward.

She then walked around Jimin, on her tippy toes. He smiled at how cute she was.

Once she was sitting in her bed and under the blanket she looked up at Jimin who was still watching her. She patted on the space on the mattress next to her. He walked over and sat with his back facing her.

Jimin took off his jeans and Tori laid down just as Jimin was starting to get under the blanket. They laid there for a second in silence.

"Why is it so awkward between us? It's not like we haven't been in this situation before" Jimin said as he turned to face Tori, referring to the night back in her old dorm.

Tori smiled when she could see his face; "Maybe because you're not drunk" she teased him.

"Or is it because of before... at the door" Jimin said looking her right in the eyes.

Tori didn't know how to answer. She rolled onto her back, so Jimin could only see the side of her face. She looked up at the roof trying to think of what to say.

Jimin sat up and moved. He was now on top of Tori in between her legs. Tori couldn't help but to lift her legs just slightly for a more comfortable position. Jimin then began sliding his hands up the sides of Tori body lifting her shirt with them, his eyes never leaving hers.

Tori smiled and stopped him before he revealed her boobs. Jimin left his hand where they were and rested his head on her chest. Tori placed one hand on the side of his face as the other played with his hair. He could see her face and she could see his.

"It's okay if you don't want to have sex" Jimin said sweetly but bluntly.

"It's not that... I just... I don't know" Tori started then covered her face again. 'Why am I being so awkward?' she thought to herself.

Jimin smiled, "You're a virgin, I get it. You want it to be-"

Tori cut him off, "I'm not a virgin" she said as she moved her hands to see his face.

Jimin looked slightly confused. "So then, w-"

She cut him off again, "Can we not talk about this" she said as she grabbed the sides of his face and smiled. He couldn't help but to smile back.