Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said

Gone

I'm alone
In my crazy mind

Filled with good and the bad
From the pain that cause all the sad

But it's the it right
To keep it all inside

As it slowly drowns
And tears me apart

Inside idk what to do
On this day I cry

But then I smile
Why is everyone gone

Left in such a quick pace
And well they all do it again

The ones I love most
Get bored with me

I'm a hopeless romantic
And a dramatic dreamer

And I want things I can't have
I want to not think

I want to know she's not dead
I want to go home again

Say I love u
To that one person as mine

Just again
They all leave

Gone
Again

All those friends
All those parents

And well the girlfriends
They leave

Leave that hopeless romantic
The dramatic dreamer

Who can't sleep
And has so many problems

But maybe so many times
I try and try

It just makes them tired
So what if I leave

Will they need me again
Or maybe just half as much

As I wish for them to love me
Or just come to stay

But I don't beg
I can't

It's annoying
And mean

I can't tell my problems
Can't tell anyone how I feel

Cause I'm always sad
Cause everyone is leaving

Cause my mom could be dead
And my life could be hell again

My while life is falling again
This is why I want to leave

I want to run from these problems
Maybe on the 25th I'll be far

So far they won't talk to me
I'll be gone like they all are

But I tell the people I think might
Just maybe want me to stay

But I was right
They don't need me

So maybe going away would be better
Then no one will know me

Maybe I'll find my happiness
It's what I always do

When everything gets hard
Sorry to say that I do it

But I run and just disappear
Find a new place to just hide

Cause maybe they won't find me
Maybe I'll finally feel okay

I did it twice in the last year
So maybe I won't cry as much

Maybe I'll smile more often
Cause those people will be able

To just leave this
Girl that is not okay

But maybe she just wants
Just one person more

To tell her
Please stay

Why?
For me

Cause she's hopping someone
Just might need her

Or want her
But if she did go home

She would be gone
In that place again

Where the trust is gone
And she can't do anything much

But maybe that's what she needed
So maybe she will go back

Or beg the one that hates her to
Just maybe take her back

Cause she doesn't
Like all this anymore

So much time to think
That it just slowly

Kills
Her