Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said

Sleep

I follow my dreams like an escape

Hold on to every last piece

Like it's never gonna come back

Like all those people did

Cause one thing

No one understands

Is why when I'm alone so long

I cry

Why?

Well it's like the world is fighting me

Not the world but my head

Not my head but the thoughts

The thoughts that come

Over and over

The ones that remind me how sad

I was

Ten minutes ago

How that comedy special isn't funny

The what?

10th time watching it

Cause all I want

Is to be happy like I was

When I had all those times

The ones where I wasn't alone

You know when I smiled

And was silly

When no one left

Or if they did they came back

You always came back...

Right?

Cause after that time

Maybe I still needed those people

The ones who kept leaving

The ones I loved

The ones who helped me

All the time

The ones who... Well

Texted back

Or didn't hate me

Or didn't wanna use me

Or cared about me...

Or where they lying?

Like everyone else does?

Maybe?

Or maybe I'm over thinking life again

And I can't get over

Those giant

Thoughts

Stuck in my head

So maybe one day I can sleep

Without someone there to

Protect me

Or maybe...

I'll drop trying

And disappear forever