I'm back here again
Hiding behind my words
Floating on this screen
Screaming my feelings
Like I can't speak
Well I can't
I'm mute
Not just to you
To everyone else cause I cant
So not again
Do I wanna fall in love
Cause that shit hurts me everyday
Not something you get over
Like the sea waves
Just splashing around
I stopped swimming
Have spent months
Drowning
So now I'm crying
Help me
In these words
I fear
The shark in the water
That is always being me
Tearing my skin
But it doesn't kill me
No it just waits
Till I think I'm safe
Then it grabs me and pulls me under
Over and over
While I scream no
Please
Not again
Cause I'm trapped
Same shit everyday
Happy then broken
Then taking pills to sleep
Drinking to stay awake
I can't live like this
You see
Not again
Im alone today
Get maybe one person a day
Actually care
One person should matter right?
But when I joke
When I mean it
That's me screaming for help
Yet all I do is fear it
Not again
I don't trust you
I trusted them
But maybe you too will..
Forget to feed me..
Not again
Do I cry over you
But we know the lies
I'm think of sharing for you
Be happier is what I scream
Maybe
NOT AGAIN
Will I cry for you
Oh hun...
Let me fix my self
And watch them come back
Not again
Do I go back
But even though I change my mind
Like a dog chases a squirrel
I run back
No matter how long
They all leave
Maybe not again
Do I take
Another breath
Maybe
Not again
Will they
Leave me
For
Dead....
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Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said
PoetryWords of a broken soul and hopeless dreamer shouted out for the whole world to see
