I have them constantly
It's like seeing the ones I love dying
Except it is
Almost.
It's you
Again
And
Again
I wanna tell you
But I cant
I kept the one channel open
Thinking what if I can make it better
But it never works
So maybe if I say it here I'll get my point across
I know I fucked up
I know I'm not perfect
I know I did some shit that fucked you over
Cause I couldn't tell you why I did it
And I know that doesn't change what happened but here it goes
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I tried to hurt them
Cause that's why I said shit
Cause the idea that having someone fall for you
Then leaving
Well that kills a man
And I thought I could do that
To justify you...
But I made my mistake
And I did it along with all the others
I tried three times
Overdoses
Bleeding till I passed out
But I don't die
Or maybe I didn't want to
I want to say sorry
Cause every day
I try and figure shit out
I didn't wanna read what you said about me
I didn't wanna see you tell her you loved her
But what I didn't realize you told her while with me...
So I don't know what to believe
I don't know what to say
You leave so much
And then comeback and tell me feelings never end
But drunk you doesnt want me
I found that out the other day
You told me how my lie made turn to shit
And with that I cry
Cause I know I fuck shit up
But why tell me you blocked her
But your friends on the side
And tell me you don't love me
And say it was cause of my mistake
And why tell me not to give up..
But make me feel used
Cause after what I do for you
I lose faith I'm not a slut
So yeah I should say I'm sorry
Along with that I wanna fix it
But more that I think
More that I think
Why tf am I not dead yet
But since your gone you wouldn't notice like you never did before
When I went missing for days
You only thought of her
And I became your distant friend
And what I'm scared of is well my friends going to you
And saying I'm the bad guy
Maybe some would tell me to die
But i can't really do much other than cry
I kinda want the truth
And I kinda wanna feel okay
And I kinda wanna die
And I kinda wanted to cut today
And I kinda have to not take my pills
And I kinda will leave you alone
Cause I stopped stalking
Honestly logged out your accounts
And didn't say anything
And blocked you...
Cause you blocked me too
And well now ima go
And hope I could change it
Maybe then I wouldn't be like this
So goodbye again...
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Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said
PoetryWords of a broken soul and hopeless dreamer shouted out for the whole world to see