Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said

Midnight

The night is cold

Like your words

When they were turned to stone

And throw to my heart

Bruising and breaking it again

I can cry

And I can scream

But all I feel is the pain they bring

No matter how long your gone

You don't  care about all those things

That only you promised

Call me a slut

Call me needy

That's what they all say

Maybe that just me

Maybe the people who told me to die

Had there reasons

Hell my mom said it too

All I can seem to do

Is fuck you up

And fuck the world over

And maybe that's because my time

Is over

But you don't change your status

And well I changed mine...

Cause even if I love you

Your no longer mine...

You left me again

And well that hurts

So I hope the tears are okay

Cause they are the only way I can show you my pain

I said I'm sorry

But that didn't work

So do I try again

But use different words

I'll admit

I'm a slut

That wants attention

That fucked up my life

With what was a pure intention

So with the words

I can barley speak

I'll tell you I'm sorry love

For my soul to keep

And as my heart slows

And the doc

Is rushing

And I'm in a gown I know

Is never a blessing

I walk the halls

Trying to find you again

Looking for the lips I once kissed

The hair that once shined in my finger tips

The words that took my breathe away

But now I'm dear

You hate me for all I can say

And I know this is a lot about you

So I'm sorry

If that makes you hate me more now for you

But I get weaker by the hour

And hurt more by the thoughts of us

Turned sour

So I'll take another drink

Maybe another pill

And as the memories stay

I'll try again

And again

Till I'm gone from the sorrow

I've been givin

So as I lie in the dark

And search in the light

For what once brought me my smiles

I hope your happy

Now that my breath

Has been at its last..

And forever say

I love you

Dear

But after the pain

Of your hate

And pushing me away

This is good bye

And now you can be happy at last