The world has a hand around my neck
And as I struggle for air
It tells me the things I wanna hide from
It's speaks in my ear as I walk down the road
That I'm worthless
That everytime someone compliments my dress
It's cause they can see the cuts shown on my wrist
But I just nod and say thank you but cry..
I should cry the pain away
But when I do I have life pin me down
And with a knife he says he will end it
But I don't feel scared
Hard to scare someone who wants what you can bring
But all people can give is the hate
All i get is yelling
Why did you cut
Cause me well I was alone
But I shouldn't need constant attention
No, I have to be on my own
I have to stop hiding behind life like it's going to protect me
My only sport these days is finding a way to fix it
Thinking though my plans that people yell at me for
I think about how nice it might be for them to not have to worry
Or maybe they don't...
That's what the voice in my head says
When I beg everyone I can
Let me end this here
I have the tools in my hands
And my body to finish
I'm not happy with the looks
And I'm not happy at all
I smile when people want me to
But most of the time it's my mask
The one where I laugh
And be who they need
But little does everyone know
I see everything
I analyze
And think about everything
I noticed how those people do thing when nervous
And how they do. It around me
How if I flirt
It drives them away
How no matter what I do that pain in my chest grows
Like a sunflower
But stained red from all the breaks
Cause no matter how I show myself
I feel worse
Every time they say something nice
I see the mean in there eyes
Or the staring me down in hind sight
No one thinks I would notice if they died
But I notice the minutes between texts
The space of the words
The dots at the end of their words
But as I beg them
The distance is longer.
And sometimes they accidentally let me
Sometimes I get the one person who says yes you can
So maybe I should just hid myself
Or loose my grip
Let go of that cliff
Cause life has me hanging
And it seems the people I love
Just watch me struggle
And yell when I start cutting the rope
Cause I can't hold my self up
So maybe I. Don't have to beg anymore
Maybe it can just all end
Cause while. They arnt looking
I. Just might fall
But they won't notice
Till I. stop screaming for help
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Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said
PoetryWords of a broken soul and hopeless dreamer shouted out for the whole world to see