I'm a week clean
It sounds great
Don't you think?
I don't cry as much
Or maybe that's what I'm a tell you
I'll tell you how happy I am
I'll smile more
As I watch what kills me
Deep down
No one sees past my mask do they
Why would they
I said oh hey I'm okay
Turned I'm fine
Into my only lie
Besides the people I say
"I love you"
Too..
Maybe I don't mean it
Cause
I
I don't wanna hurt you
Everyone knows what I feel
When I wear my heart
Stuck on my sleeves
Cause mom says that's how you find
Find what?
Find someone good right?
Try again.
Cause they will take out the seems
And break your heart
Like it never mattered to them
And you maybe never had theirs
Cause they hid it behind so many
Walls
So yes I'm clean
But I have mine
Taped to my heart
Waiting for the time I wanna bleed
To help me feel
Pain that never leaves
Somewhere else for maybe just a little while
Cause yes it hurts
And what hurts most
Is the people
The thoughts
The people who are so suicidal
I die inside
The people who don't wanna ask
Are you fucking okay
Cause no I'm not
I'm almost dead
But that's okay
I guess
That hopeless dreamer
Won't make it to the stars
Cause her heart
Is stuck all over the burning earth
I wanna leave
And stop being trapped
I cut the ties away
But all it does is make me bleed
Yet again
Help I scream out to you
But you hear a normal hello
And talk about how you feel better today
But I NEED HELP OKAY?
Help me please.
I don't want die
From the pain of being fallen
Pain of loving
The broken
Yet again
Love me?
Just once like I love you
Love me like you did once
Love me more than I do this blade
To my bruised and broken skin
Could you kiss the pain away
Like you did last time
I'm screaming
God
I just need help this time
From you
Maybe I want to reach you
Without sending that text
Asking for help
Maybe you could come back
And be around me
Oh dear god I hope
Love me?
Like you did before?
Longer than a month or two
Longer than an hour
Longer than you usually do
Before my blade and skin
Meet again
For a battle
Of their love
Kiss it better?
No just for a night?
Cause I still love you
Yes thats right
I'ma a die like
A broken hearted dreamer
No where near her sky
Using a tool that will never help
So love me?
Just one more night....
So
I
Could
Breathe
And
Cut
The
Reins
And
Maybe
Win
The
Fight....
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Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said
ПоэзияWords of a broken soul and hopeless dreamer shouted out for the whole world to see