Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said

When you just can't

When you just can't sleep

Or eat

Or dream

Maybe even think

It's like creating a hole in your mind

Did they lie

So they don't have to deal with this

This is you?

Well no it's not

It's the part of me that no one sees

Till I'm alone so long

I can't sleep

I wanna ask for help

I have the people

But maybe

I don't know what to say

Maybe I just want everything I had

To come back not just for a day

Or an hour

Cause it never lasts

I just wanna be happy

But I could scream this

from the highest roof top

And it might never reach you

Cause maybe I dream of things

So many things

But I can't have them

What if I'm hiding

Because I'm scared of loosing

The little things I had left

Cause those people who say

"I won't leave you"

"I'm always here"

"Anything you need I will give"

And the biggest lie of all

"I love you"

But I still think that's true

No matter how many times

That they all lie

It stopped being that one person

The one person who seems to be

The cause of

Everything?

But it's only what you hear

You hear about that all the time

It's the only thing that makes me

Sane?

No...

Maybe when the world stopped loving

I should have stopped caring...

Maybe then I could pick my heart up faster

Cause it's not breaking anymore

It's just unfixable

Until..

I can trust these people again

But it only takes one second to lie

And break trust from years

But it takes years

To regain

What

Can be

Lost

In

Seconds.