I sat in my room gasping in the quiet
Till the noise disappeared
I watch myself do the things I know I can't
I heard it speak words unlike mine
The pain that is resting
Slightly on my heart
Is killing my mind and my body
By taking over with the voices at please
I'm controlled sometimes
To be different again
I have my tools
With me every step of the way
Hidden on my person
So no one might notice
It's gotten so bad the checking
And fear
I leave my phone alone practically all day
I write
And scroll
But it's hard when your body is moving so slow
I can't move my arm
As fast as I could
My left cant keep up with the right
Cause of the blackout I caused
From the pain when I made people go away
Now I can't type without the pain
Maybe I should say what happened
About two days ago
You see I was in my normal ways
Watching YouTube hoping time might go
Maybe wishing someone might text
Or just someone might care again..
But soon the voices yelled..
Made me feel worse
Made the pain remain
But instead of crying I went to the mirror
To see if I could've changed
But all. I saw was that till then
I woke up in fear
I was sitting in my tub unclear
The water was orange
And my arm just bleed
Quickly and fast
From so many cuts
I didn't understand how it happens so fast
But it didn't cause it was an hour
I just was alone..
Till I text the friend
Who I need the most
Cause no matter how much they hurt me
I can't leave them
Cause them happy is all I need
But I had to clean it up
And hold my arm and force the bleeding to stop.
But now my arm is stiff
And it hurts when it moves
And I can't even hold my phone
So here everyone's gonna go
And say oh no
But maybe all I need
Is someone
I can tell everything I feel to
Without them saying sorry and it's gonna be okay
I just wanna know
Someone cares...
Not just feels bad for what I'm living though...
STAI LEGGENDO
Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said
PoesiaWords of a broken soul and hopeless dreamer shouted out for the whole world to see