Breaking Boundaries

Chapter 19 - "101 ways"

Instead, I walk towards her and pick her up.

She's fully naked. And I have only my boxer shorts on so her breasts are smudged up against my bare chest.

But I don't want sex with her.

She's vulnerable right now, I won't mess with her head anymore than its already been messed with. I kiss her, I kiss her like I've never kissed before.
I give her my all in this one kiss.

I place her into the bathtub and she looks at me surprised, But then I know she realises.

"Thank you." she says sweetly.

"You'll be OK Lee. I'll make sure of it."

I sit on the edge of the bath, take the sponge and rinse it over her back.

"You coming in?" she says.

"If I get in I won't be able to control myself around you."

"You don't have to.. Take my pain away.."

That breaks me.

The fact that I can always take her pain away, I don't know if it's a good thing or bad.
I'm not gonna always be around to take it away.

"I can't.." I whisper whilst washing her body. .

"I'm sorry." she says barely as a whisper.

"What for?"

"I'm so confused. I was never like this before, now I feel like a whore."
Her voice breaks as she says it.

"You're not a whore what the fuck?"

"I slept with Hunter, then you.. Then nearly slept with him again.."

"That doesn't make you a whore. You're no where close to a whore. Also you're single. I used to sleep with a different girl every night so what was I?" I try and laugh a little to change the atmosphere.

But her response knocks me back.

"Used to?"

Yeah used to .. Until I met you...

"Yeah.. Before I started on this job. I don't get time anymore."

Lies.

"Oh. You don't hate me for going with him last night?"

"Never. It's not possible to hate you, you're over exaggerating. You haven't done anything wrong. I was a bit gutted when I thought you had slept with him. But you didn't."

"But you don't want to touch me now?"

Her voice cracks I'm facing her back so I lift round to look at her face.

Tears.

"Lee, what's wrong?"

"I don't know. I just feel so low and I don't know how to stop it."

"Sleeping with me isn't the answer princess."

"You're the only person that makes me feel better."

Those words touch me.
I'm the only person.

I take off my boxer shorts and step in behind her.
I don't want to touch her like this, I don't want to have to fight my feelings. To have to hold back and not do the things my bodies screaming out to do.
I'm the only person that can make her feel better.
Sex doesn't need to be involved.
She needs me close, so as hard as this is going to be. I need to make her feel better.
I pull her back onto my chest. The view I have is fucking breathtaking.