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(24) Pained

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     I looked out the window of the plane, staring at the clouds as we flew our way to the Russo Household.

     All my bruises were already treated when we arrived at the airport. Mat insisted that we head to the hospital first, but since we were already threatened, it wasn't safe for us to stay there anymore.

     And Johnson...

     Even if I didn't want to...we left him behind.

     I've been crying for almost 2 hours now that I didn't have any tears left in me. I was so tired, so angry, and so lost. I didn't know what to do anymore.

     "Romeo", Julien says as he walks towards me.

     I looked at him and don't say anything, suddenly, Julien went down on his knees and bowed in front of me.

      "I do not need your forgiveness Romeo", Julien suddenly says, shocking me. We haven't really talked after what happened earlier, so I'm quite shocked to see him do this all of a sudden.

     "Julien, what on earth are you doing?" I asked as I immediately kneeled down to hold him.

     Julien looks up at me, his eyes red because of too much crying, "This is all my fault. You should have just left me there. You should have just killed me too."

     "Julien...why would I do that to you?" I asked as I wiped the tears off of his face.

     Julien slowly lowers his head and said, "Johnson's death...is clearly my fault."

     Julien continued to cry. I wanted to tell him that it wasn't his entire fault, but somehow, I just couldn't.

     I wanted to blame someone, and I know that it's unfair for me to blame it on Julien when he hasn't even done anything wrong.

     "I promised Johnson that I will protect you", I say as the tears were once again falling from my eyes.

     The pain that I felt when I left Johnson to die will forever leave a scar in my heart. But Johnson wouldn't want me to act like this. He wouldn't want me to just sit here and let everything else fall because I was too much in pain because of his lost.

     He wants me to fight back, to make sure I take my revenge on the people who hurt Julien, my maids, and now even Johnson himself.

     "I couldn't protect my maids, and I couldn't even protect Johnson. You're the only one I have left Julien, you're the only family I have", I say as I looked straight at his eyes.

     Julien cried louder as he grabbed me for a hug.

     "I will never leave you Romeo. You die, I die...I will make sure that I'll be by your side, even through death", Julien says as he hugged me tighter.

     I slowly pushed him away, and then I looked at him and gave Julien a kiss. Tears were still pouring out of my eyes as I continued to kiss him. And just like that, the pain slowly vanished.

     When we parted from the kiss, Julien looked at me and said, "We'll take our revenge. I'll help you...I'll help you destroy the Dark Saints...even if it kills me."

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     "Thank you my dear friend, thank you", I say as I was hugging Mat.

     Mat pats my back and says, "What happened to Johnson...we'll get them Romeo. Now that I'm here, I'll make sure we'll get them."

     "Thank you", I say as we parted from the hug.