Grievously Prideful (Jungkook x Lisa)

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- Lisa

It's been several hours since the boys left and I feel so bored.

Jisoo eonnie, usually plays on her phone.

Jennie eonnie, what's the difference? She's watching in Netflix.

Chaeyoung, playing her guitar, memorizing something.

And me...
Nothing.

"Lisa, I can hear your phone ringing on your room."
       Jennie eonnie informed, eyes glued on her phone.

I stood up and went to my room, finding my phone ringing.

I was excited as I thought it was Jungkook but as took my phone on the desk it was...

"Bambam."

"Hello?"
       I coldly answered the phone.

"Hi."
        And he excitedly replied.

"What is it?"
        I asked, and sat on my bed.

"I want to see you on the rose garden we usually goes when we are bored."
        He stated.

And I have the urge to refuse because me and Jungkook are official already.

"Bambam, I..."
        But I didn't got the chance to even tell thatI dom't want.

"See ya."
         He excitedly stated before hanging without giving a warning.

I sighed realizing that I need to tell him now.

But then, it is good anyway, I will be able to tell him personally.

I felt a sudden weight in my shoulder, and the oxyge got heavier.

I looked up at the ceiling.

Bambam is my childhood friend.
He haven't been in love with someone and now that he does, unlucky him, it was me.

He is always there when I need someone.
When I text him, he won't reply and I'll just found him knocking om the door, or he'll meet me somewhere.

He's always the eprfect guy a girl will need, a woman will need.

He is sweet, lovable, concern, caring, charming, good looking, talented, crush of the nation, he's almost perfect...he's perfect...but not for me.

I know if I will tell him later, he'll get hurt, but if I didn't and made the wrong move...

I might end up doing what Jungkook did on me in the past.

They are friends...
And I can't cut it just because they both love me.

I love Jungkook as well as Bambam.

But just like Chaeyoung...

I love the other one as my man...

And the other one as my brother.

I love Bambam in the way...
I want to call him oppa.

And I love Jungkook in the way I did earlier.

And I know one will get hurt...

But...

I can't do the same thing as Chaeyoung did.

I can't let history repeat itself.

I have taken too much of that betrayal...
I have taken enough from that secret affection and else, I have taken the lesson already. And I should follow what is right.