Grievously Prideful (Jungkook x Lisa)

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- Lisa

I gently tucked myself between the blanket and the mattress.

Tears can't stop falling.

What's happening on my life isn't easy.

This is more than receiving hates from the audience.

Our friends, themselves, are doubting me already, making me feel like I am going to do something to betray all of them.

I should be receiving pity and worry, but instead of that, I am receiving judgement from everyone.

At the very first place, I shouldn't be engaged with Bambam because as far as I know, J rejected him and.

Everything happened since the night I let him kiss me, he gained the hope there and it is my fault that night.

But what's happening these days...
I don't think these are still my fault.

Getting into a controversy, saying that I am a slut for dating Bambam right after dating Jungkook on public.

Now, I am suddenly engage with Bambam.

Everyone was clueless how me and Bambam ended up here, and so I am.

I am very confused on what is happening on my normal life before and that now it is a fucking messy life.

Life should be easy, because you should do those things that are right and those things that you want only.

Life should be fair and square but because of the people around you...life gets tough and disorganized.

Everything now is a chaos.

Even though I love Jungkook, it is not enough for me to relax.

Even though he loves me, that is not enough for us to be fine.

We are both facing problems...

But for now...
It is me that is suffering too much.

Their CEO is fine with him quitting on the show with Tzuyu, but if it was me and YG...

I might end up getting into a punishment.

Knowing YG...

He will do everything for the entertainment company to rise.

He has that pride that is not letting him to be dragged down.

"Living doll?"
        I was just letting myself out, when a gentle knock was heard from my door.

"Jungkook."

I actually want to be alone...

But I can't refuse his presence here.

The sounded opening...

And as it was shutted gently, I brushed the tears off from my face.

I felt hands rubbing my arm.

I sat up and fixed my hair.

I mustered a smile yet didn't bother looking at him.

"I'm fine."
        I stated.

"I'm not asking, because I know you're not."
        He answered making me chuckle while the tears are just continuously streaming down.

"This is just...I'm just tired, Jungkook."
        I looked at him, with a smile on my lips, and my brows furrowed a little as I try to stop myself from sobbing.