I don't think I've cried this much in like years. He did that because of me, I feel like shit... "It's not your fault" he sniffled. "Yes it is" I wiped my tears. "Stop, babe it's okay, I'm fine, it's not your fault" "No it's not, if you went any deeper you could have-" "Baby calm down" he sniffled. "That doesn't matter, it's in the past now" he put his forehead to mine. I hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry" I buried my face into his chest. "Don't be, (y/n) it's okay, it's not your fault" he rubbed my back. It is though... *time skip*
I feel so bad still. I can't help it, Colby out of all the people you would think to do that to themselves. It was because of me... I feel so bad oh my god, my boyfriend did that, because of me. Don't start crying again, don't start crying again. Fuck. "Babe?" He wrapped his arm around me. "I'm sorry" I wiped my tears again. "Baby don't cry please, you're gonna make me cry" he pulled me into his lap. I wrapped my arms around his neck "I'm sorry..." I said again. He rubbed my back. "Don't be... Please stop crying" he said kissing me softly. I kissed him back. "Better?" He asked me. I nodded and laid my head on his shoulder. He laid down pulling me on him, he wrapped his arms around my waist tightly. I nuzzled my face into his neck. "I'm sorry" I said again. "It's fine" he said. *time skip*
I guess I slept okay, I still feel like it's my fault. He only did it twice both of the times was because of me, I feel like the worst girlfriend ever. *smol time skip*
"I love you" I said. "I love you too" he said. I hugged him again for like the the 50th time today. "Babe are you just doing this because of last night?" "Maybe" I nuzzled my face into his chest. "I told you it's fine, okay?" He looked down at me. "Okay" I said. It's not though.
~Taylor signing off 👻
