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I was sitting with Jungkook laying against me, in between my legs and I was teaching him how to play COD better. I had my arms around his shoulders, and I was playing with the controller in front of him so he could see what I was doing on the screen and with my hands too.

I was playing with other people, and he giggled every time I killed someone. He quickly started calling me Noona, and I was completely okay with it because we were only a few years apart and he was also a baby. He loved to tease his hyungs and make fun of them, but he was my baby.

I killed three of them that cornered me, and when I finished, he cheered. "Good job, Noona!" He squealed, making me chuckle. "Do you want to go make something to eat with me, Noona?" He asked softly, turning to me. His big eyes almost made me squeal because he's so cute. I nod, and we get up together. We haven't really tested what would happen if we parted, because I don't want to hurt my baby.

We went to the kitchen and made instant noodles, holding hands the entire time. We went back to the living room and ate noodles together, me feeding him and every once in a while taking a bite as Tae and Yoongi played together. Jungkook sat next to me, hand intertwined with mine as we ate. When we finished, we played all against each other in Mario Kart, me between Yoongi and Kookie. I layed my head on Tae's shoulder, and Kookie layed in between my legs again. Yoongi layed his head on my shoulder as we played, and I felt so warm and wanted while we played.

The rest of the boys were doing there own thing, mainly staying in the living room with Namjoon dropping by to kiss me on the forehead or cheek every so often. I knew perfectly well that Jungkook wasn't going to Finalize with me by just spending time with me, but I wanted to spend time with him. It would also be easier to Finalize with him with the building up trust. 

We spent the day together, only stopping to eat when Jinnie made us. 

We played well into 2 in the morning, probably because of how long I stayed asleep. Tae and Yoongi stayed awake as well, and we all split up when Yoongi was literally falling asleep. Tae helped Yoongi to his room, and Tae went off to his room. Jungkookie and I walked each other to his room, and when we got there, he pulled two pairs of pajamas out. They both consisted of over-sized white shirts and light blue pajama pants. 

I didn't even hesitate to make sure I kept my hand on his body when he pulled his shirt off. He pulled the white shirt on (as if the one he wasn't wearing before was white) and then held onto me for support as he pulled off his jeans and put on his pajama pants. Then he looked at me hesitantly. 

He started to walk way, letting go of my hand but I gripped his harder. "Calm down, Kook." I say, chuckling. I pulled him back before I started pulling off my skinny jeans. He kept his eyes on my face and he blushed softly. I pulled on the pajama pants as I held onto him for balance, and he chuckled. 

Then I hesitated before nodding. "Just keep your hands on me, Jungkook." I say, and he nods as he slides he hand to my waist. He blushes as I pull my shirt over my head and pull his shirt on. His eyes flicker down for a second before he tilts his head up abruptly, and I giggle. "You okay, Kookie?" I ask and he nods, returning his gaze to my face. He nods. "Yeah, let's uh, let's go to bed." He hummed, and I giggle again. 

"Okay, Kookie." I say as I pick up both of our dirty clothes and throw them in the dirty clothes basket. We both crawl into bed and I pull him close to me, so we're looking at each other. "Why are you afraid of me, baby boy?" I ask softly. He sighs as his eyes droop shut. "I've always been scared of girls." He murmurs softly, a little embarrassed. "Something that happened with a girl when I was a kid. Something bad." He says. I nod softly. "Me too." I say, and he opens his eyes. 

"What?" He asks, and I nod softly. "When I was a kid something bad happened between a few girls and me too." I say, and he cocks his head. "Like what?" He asks softly, his voice fragile. "I was like, 11 and my step cousins were 20 and 21. We saw each other everyday and nobody knew what was happening every day for about 6 months until I turned, what, 16? That's why I never really liked any girls other than my sister." I say, letting out the sensitive information. He nods softly, his eyes filled with fragile tears.

"It was just one girl for me, one time. She was older too, probably on drugs. I was 14." He says, and I feel my heart hurting, but also anger at anybody for hurting my baby. I pull him closer. "You can trust me, baby, I'll never hurt you. Ever." I say as he nuzzles into my neck, and a few tears run down my chest from him.

"I'll never hurt you either, Noona." He says, and I hum. "Okay, baby boy. Goodnight." I hum, and he sniffs.

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Okay so let me clear something up real quick
My girl Ara is Bi
Okay well
Bi?

Dedicated to my roommate  <3

Kisses x