Adventures of shuqi

I'm not the one

Soojin pov
I've been aware of how things been off in the group and how stressed Shuhua has been in wanting to help but this fear was just greater than me. "Soojin." I hear Soyeon voice from behind immediately snapping me out of my thoughts. "Yes?" I reply, as I look to see her with a stern and serious face. "I'm sorry but I've read your dairy and know that secret you've been hiding, but it's time you speak the truth. This isn't only affecting you but the whole group and as leader I need to fix that." Soyeon says with a blank expression unable to read her. "I can't ! I'll ruin things between us and cause more problems." I exclaim as fear takes over. "Soojin you can't keep hiding away. Shuhua will understand and make sure to find a way to fix things." Soyeon says softy but how does she know? "I can't." I say. "You can't or is it that you won't." Soyeon says walking closer to me.

No words were being said and I feared the destruction my feelings can cause. "Soojin if you don't speak up then I will. I can't have this keep on going just because of your fear, you have to overcome it because you're causing more destruction with your silence then with your words." Soyeon says but continues to speak. "I know you won't be the one, but I'm sure you'll find someone who can and will allow you to be the one. Now it's all up to you Soojin and I hope you make the right decision." Soyeon says leaving the room as she takes one last look at me before leaving as I stayed rooted in my spot.

I sit on the edge of my bed and the words repeat in my head. I'm not the one. Four simple words that seem to bring back to reality and accept things as for what they are, but it's doesn't make anything easy on me. I stood up from my bed and make my way towards Shuhua's and Yuqi's shared room with determination of confessing. I knock on the gently and hear a soft come in. As I enter I see Shuhua holding Miyeon, who sleeps peacefully in the arms of her lover without a worry in the world and she felt a sting in her heart. "Is there something you need unnie ?" Shuhua whispered so she wouldn't wake Miyeon up. "I need to talk to you." I whisper back, "I'll meet you in the living." She says as she tries to remove Miyeon slowly from her embrace. "Actually meet me on the rooftop." I say without looking at her as I leaving without waiting for her response.

Shuhua's pov
I was busy admiring Miyeon and so caught up in her beauty that I seem to forget all about my worries for a moment. But when Soojin entered my room I knew she was ready to open up which I was grateful for. I managed to get out off bed without waking Miyeon up or so I thought. "Where you going?" Miyeon whispers as I turn to look at her as she pouts like a cute baby. "I'll be back soon. Soojin unnie just asked me if she can talk to me." I say softy taking a seat on the edge of the bed. "Fine, but come back fast and cuddle me, okay?" She says with an adorable face that I couldn't help but lean and kiss her lips gently. I pull back and leave one last kiss on her lips. "I'll be back soon don't worry." I say with a smile and exit the room and walk towards the rooftop.

I see Soojin looking at the view but I felt relief that she was gonna finally talk to me about her problems. "Hey." I say lowly so she won't get scared, "hi." She says back without looking at me. I frown as I make my way towards her and stand next to her. "So what did you want to talk about ?" I question looking at the sky with a smile on my face. "I'm in love with you." Soojin says and I stay frozen in my spot not knowing how to react nor how to feel. I immediately look at her and see her looking at me with teary eyes which I was the cause of.

My mind was blank as I figure out what exactly to say to her, but how could I. "Please say something." She says sobbing and I felt guilty that i haven't noticed that I was the cause of her behavior and pain. "I'm sorry Soojin, but I love Miyeon." I say without looking up and I hear crying more. "Why couldn't I be the one! I'm not the one!" She starts to yell and I flinch and slowly move back. "I'm not the one." She mumbles to herself but the tears flow down her face without stopping and I couldn't help but feel tears of my own get teary. "I'm sorry." I whisper and look at her straight in the eyes.

"I hate you." She whispers coming closer to me. But then she finally snaps, all her bottled up feelings seem to take over and I feared she could hurt herself.  Soon enough she's looking at me with a look I couldn't describe but I knew I never wanted to see it as it was painful. She started to hit my chest and I simply held in her hopes of her to calm down but let her hit me since the pain I caused wasn't comparable to the pain she felt. I knew I would have bruises but didn't care as long as I calmed her down before things get out off hand. She looked me with hurt written all over face but her tears never seem to stop.

Oh dear god please help me. "Soojin." I say softy. I feel her begin to hit my chest when suddenly I feel a sharp pain on my cheek and stay rooted in my spot as I try to process what happened. "Soojin !!" I hear someone then I feel someone pull Soojin away from me as I look up to see Miyeon glaring at Soojin while Soyeon holds Soojin.

"What's wrong with you ?!" Miyeon yells at Soojin and I hold her waist to stop her from approaching Soojin. "Babe stop, let's go back to the room." I say softy and she looks at me but doesn't stop. "Never ever lay a hand on her again or so god help me." Miyeon growled and I felt scared. I drag Miyeon back to the room and lock it once we've arrived. "She has no rights to lay a hand on you." Miyeon says pacing around the room as I hug her. "I'm fine Miyeon, please come down." I say softy and she pulls back and holds my face gently. "She left a cut on your lip, how is that fine!" She says frustrated and I hugged her tightly.

"Please calm down Miyeon. She was overwhelmed by her feelings and lost control but you have to understand her. Keeping your feelings bottled for so long can only mean you snap because someone can only take so much." I say in hopes of easing her and I feel her relax. "Let's clean you lip." She says walking away and I stay where she left me. I'm not the one, those words keep repeating in my head. I'm sorry Soojin but Miyeon is the for me and I hope you can forgive me.

I recommend listening to "I'm not the one." By art of sleeping, it definitely fits the mood. I hope you enjoyed the chapter and I'll be sure to update on time. Have a good day and stay weird :) also sorry for any mistakes!