Inevitable

The Worst Day

He never texted me back. This was getting ridiculous. Yes, what I did was wrong. But ignoring me was childish. If we were going to work, we needed to talk through stuff. I still was hopeful we could work it out.
    My phone rang and I quick grabbed it hoping it was Henry. It was Jess.

"Hey Jess, what's up?"

"Em, have you been on Instagram yet today?"

"No, why?"

"There's some pics of Henry that are.....not good. Did you guys have a fight or something?"

I sat up and felt like my world was falling apart. What did Henry do?

"Yeah we did. I went out to dinner with Liam and didn't tell him. He found out from Melissa somehow. He's pretty furious with me over it."

"Em what were you thinking? You know Liam is a sensitive subject for Henry. And I don't even know why you are giving him another chance. He's been such a dick."

"I know. It was stupid. I was trying to avoid a fight and I made it so much worse."

"You need to go online. Go check it and call me back. I'm here for you."

And now I was having a full blown anxiety attack. After I hung up with Jess, I pulled up Instagram on my phone. There were a bunch of pictures posted last night that Henry was tagged in. They were of him and a girl I didn't recognize. In one of them, she was sitting on his lap and he had an arm around her waist. In another one, she was kissing his cheek. I didn't recognize the room they were in. I couldn't help but think what happened after they stopped taking pictures.
     The sadness I had been feeling was replaced with anger. We hit a bump in the road and he immediately went back to his old ways. Instead of working through it with me, he jumped into the arms of another girl. He ran away instead of doing the hard stuff. I don't think we could recover from this. How could we trust each other over the summer when we couldn't even trust each other now. 
    As the reality of the situation hit me, I was overcome with sadness again. I lost Henry. And it was both our faults. It just wasn't going to work out with us. We had too many issues. I didn't know if I would ever love someone so much again. He made me so happy. Maybe it was always too good to be true. I started sobbing again. My heart was breaking and I didn't know if it would ever be whole again.
    My phone rang and it was Jess calling me back. I couldn't talk right now so I hit ignore. A second later, she sent a text.

"Are u ok?"

"No"

"Do you want me to come over?"

"No that's ok. I think I'd rather be alone. Thanks tho."

"I'm so sorry Em. I'm here if you need me."

I turned my phone off. I didn't want to talk to anyone. A little while later, Jane came in.

"Em, I saw the pictures. I'm so sorry. Are you okay?"

"No I'm not. I don't think we can come back from this. I don't think I can trust him after this. And he doesn't trust me. I can't believe this is happening?"

"Have you talked to him?"

"No he's been avoiding me."

"I'm sorry. I really thought you guys were meant to be."

"Me too."

I started crying again. Jane pulled me in for a hug. I felt a little better knowing she was there for me.

"I'm going to go grab dinner. Why don't you come with me. You look like you need a distraction."

"I'm a mess. I think I'll just stay here. Thank you though."

"Okay, I'll bring you back something."

"Thank you Jane. For everything."

She left and I was alone again. Now that both her and Jess were in relationships, I guess I would be spending a lot of my time alone. I spent the next few hours trying to get some studying done. Finals were next week and I had so much to do. Jane brought me back a sandwich and I forced myself to eat half of it. She left to go to a study group. Around eight, my eyes were starting to get heavy. I had barely slept the night before. I was completely drained. I got ready for bed and turned the lights off. I was glad this terrible day was over.