The Love of my Life

chapter 27

Patrick's POV:

I had been at Tazer's for a full week. Things were weird with Ashley in Chicago. She kissed Auston. There's so much pressure on us to be perfect here.

We had just got back form a 4 day road trip and I got in the car with Ashely.

She didn't even look at me. She just drove home. She went inside and started making dinner. I went to the bedroom and re-packed a bag for Tazer's.

"Oh, you're leaving again?" She asked

"Yeah.." I said

I was leaving and she was crying.

"Don't leave.." Ashley said

I didn't look back, I knew I'd stay. I walked out the door.

Ashley's POV:

Patrick left and I knew I was slowly losing him. It was late and I drove to Tazer's and I knocked on the door and Tazer answered. A few guys were there and there were also girls over there. 

I walked in and I walked up to Patrick.

"Let's go, now." I said

"Ash, why are you here?" He asked

"Why are you here? Come home." I said

"Fine.." He said finishing his beer

He got in my car and I drove home and Patrick showered and went to bed.

"You don't get to ignore me like this.." I said

"Leave me alone.." He said

"Why were you with a bunch of girls?"

"Tazer invited people over." He answered

"Did you sleep with any of them?" I asked scared 

"No.." Unlike some people, I don't go around kissing other people when i'm in a relationship.." 

I started crying and I said, "We've talked about this.. I'm sorry.."

"Sorry doesn't change the fact you kissed him.."

"No, but it changes it everything else.." I said wiping my tears away

Patrick went to hug me and I pushed him back and said, "You don't anymore... Just stop.."

"I care so fucking much, that's what sucks.." He said 

"Doesn't feel like that.." I said 

Patrick got out of bed and he said, "I can't do this anymore.."

"Then don't.." I said 

"So this is it? This is how we end?" I asked 

"It's not my fault.." He said

"Yeah, all my fault, always is.. I get it.." 

"No you don't and you never will.."

"So what's happening? Are you breaking up with me?" I yelled

"Are you breaking up with me?" He asked back

We both just looked at each other. 

"Are you?" Patrick asked

"Are you?" I fired back

Neither of us could end things, we didn't want to.

"I am.." Patrick said

"So am I.." I said back

"Good.." He said agressivley

"Great." I said pretending to be happy