The Love of my Life

chapter 51

Ashley's POV:

We had lost 0-9 against the Rangers yesterday. Right now, they were the worst team in the league. Today, we were back in Chicago standing on the goal line. Q was skating us.. He was pissed.

We had been skating for an hour and I stopped, threw up, and kept going. Many of the guys did the same thing.

"Q, I think we're okay on the conditioning.." Tazer said trying to catch his breath

"You know, I don't think we are.."

"What are you trying to be Herb Brooks or something?" Patrick yelled

"Kaner! I've had enough of you... You can shut up and fix your game or you can go play elsewhere.."

"You're going to trade me?" Patrick asked

"You're the reason we've been losing.. You're too focused on your stupid girl.." Q said

Patrick skated up to Q and he said, "First of all, my girl is my teammate and one of your players. You will not call her stupid. Second, she has nothing to do with me being off lately.."

"Then it's the baby.." Q said

"Shut the fuck up about my family. Tazer hasn't been scoring lately, maybe it's becasue he's too focused on Lindsay. Or Duncs got walked a few times, maybe it's because he's too focused on his wife and kids.. NO! It's all about hockey. Just because my girl is on this team and just because we have a kid doesn't mean that's why we are losing.. This is a team sport, coaches included. Maybe Chicago needs a new coach.. Too distracted with his grandkids. Fuck off Q!" Patrick said getting off the ice

"On that note, twenty push ups.." Q yelled

We skated for a few more minutes and I was throwing up again.. Jamie was there and she said, "I'm pulling you.. You are breastfeeding. You can't lose all these nutrients and be dehydrated."

"I'm fine.." I said not wanting to piss coach off

"Hastings, go!" Tazer said

I got off the ice, showered, threw up again and got dressed. I was nauseous, dizzy, and physically exhausted. Jamie wouldn't even let me hold my daughter.

"Patrick, take your girls home.." Rick said

Patrick put his arm around me and he carried our daughter to the car. I went to bed and Patrick was in a horrible mood.

"Lauren needs to be fed.." He said

"I can't nurse right now.. Just make her some baby food.." I said

Patrick left. I woke up the next morning and I was feeling a lot better.

Patrick went to practice and I went later to watch. After, Q and Patrick were having a meeting.

Jamie had Lauren and I walked into his office and Q said, "It's best if you leave.."

"I'm staying.." I said sitting down

"I want to apologize to you both. Ashley, you are an incredible hockey player, but you're an even better teammate, player, soon-to-be-wife, and mom.. I was very out of line.."

"It's okay.." I said to Q

They were both quiet and I asked, "What's going on?"

"Do you want to tell her? Or should I?" Q asked Patrick

"I'll tell her.." He said

Patrick looked at me and I knew it was serious.

"When we were broken up, I kinda went back to my old ways. I partied with some girls and there is this one girl who is claiming she had my baby. There are lawyers involved and it's messy. Auston is also involved. He was at one of the bars and he's her witness that we were making out in the bar.." Patrick said

"How long have you known?" I asked

"New Years.." Patrick said

"You've known for two months and you haven't said a word... What happened to telling each other everything?"

"It's complicated.. The more people involved, the more Patrick can lose." Q said

I was crying and I got up and I left the room. I took my daughter from Jamie and I went and sat in the stands.

I couldn't believe that Patrick might have another baby. A baby that isn't mine.

Patrick came and sat next to me and he said, "I'm sorry.. I had no clue how to tell you.."

"How to tell me that you have another baby that isn't mine.." I spoke

"No.. You didn't let us finish.. I did one of those DNA tests. The baby isn't mine.." Patrick said

I was relieved.. Patrick could tell and I said, "So what's the big deal?"

"This girl is claiming it's mine.. We are trying to fight it and we are just waiting for the court date.."

I kissed Patrick and I said, "I'm sorry.."

"You have nothing to be sorry for.." Patrick said kissing my head

"I have everything to apologize for... I freaked out with hearing everything.. Sometimes I wonder what our lives would be life if we were just normal people.." I said

"I don't, because we probably wouldn't know each other.." He said

The next couple of months flew by and we were knocked out of the playoffs. We had a huge birthday party at our house to celebrate Lauren's first birthday.

It was a huge success we had bouncy houses and all of our family and friends there. I gave our daughter a bath and I put her to bed and I started to cry.

"Happy first birthday, Lauren Ella Kane... It might be your birthday, but you are the best gift your daddy had ever given me.. I love you so much, please don't ever grow up.."

Suddenly, I saw Patrick standing in the doorway.

"You scared me!" I said

"She's the best gift you've ever given me too.." He said

We both kissed our daughter goodnight and we went back outside to the bar with our friends and family.

"Truth or dare, anyone?" Shaw asked

"Game on.." Crow said

Everyone was in.. This was going to get interesting...

"Ashley, truth or dare?" Shaw asked

"Dare." I said with a smile

Shaw laughed and looked at Crow and Shaw said, "We're going to start easy.. Chuck this.."

Shaw handed me a bottle of vodka. It was pretty empty, but still full enough..

"I can't.. I'm weening off breastfeeding Lauren.." I said

"Damn.." He said

"I dare you to let me text one person on your phone..." Shaw said

"Uhh okay?"I said unlocking my phone and handing it to him