sun: did you really mean it?
ryan?: huh?
ryan?: you unblocked me
sun: yeah
sun: did you mean it?
ryan?: what?
ryan?: oh, the other day.
ryan?: of course i did. i meant everything i said that night.
sun: then why did you do it
ryan?: ?
sun: why did you leave me like that?
sun: in eighth grade.
sun: i mean, i understand it during that night, and maybe a couple days, and i'm sorry for doing it, but for that long?
sun: it really hurt.
ryan?: im sorry,
ryan?: god if i could ever say it enough times then i would, and i'm sorry, but i know there's no way i can say it enough
ryan?: my excuse is horrible. you didnt deserve any of it
sun: please just tell me why you did it
sun: we were so close and it just broke like that..
ryan?: i know, and im so sorry
ryan?: here. what i'm going to tell you is what happened. it's not a valid reason as to why i did it at all, but please listen
ryan?: i was confused. i didn't know how to react when you kissed me that night. i didn't know what to say either, so i left. i know, shitty, but keep reading. i spent the whole weekend trying to figure out what was happening and why it happened. i didn't know how to keep talking to you without making things odd. when we got back to school and told spencer about it, i left out the one main detail that made me completely stop talking to you. for the next couple weeks, i didn't know what was happening in my head. here's what i didn't tell spencer, i couldn't figure out if i liked it or didn't. i did like it, i really did, but i was in so much denial. i didn't want to admit how i was feeling because i was scared of what others would say. once i came to terms as to how i was feeling and accepted it, you already started hanging out with dallon, and i was scared to try to talk to you. i hurt you and i was afraid to try to talk to you because i was scared of what you would say or how you would react. i've missed you everyday since then. i didn't want to hurt you again, but i did. it's still a terrible excuse, but it's what happened. when you texted me two weeks ago, i got so happy, but i didn't want to tell you it was me, hence the whole anonymous for 2 weeks thing. i didn't want to tell you because i wanted to keep talking to you, i just didn't know how to do it as myself. the anonymous thing was also a way for me to try and warm myself up to you again so i wouldn't be so scared anymore. i like you, brendon. i really do. i have for a really long time. i'm sorry for everything. you running away is completely understandable when it comes to what i did. i hurt you because i was too busy thinking about myself and i regret it so much. i wish there was a way for me to stop myself from ever causing that to happen. i don't expect forgiveness, i don't deserve it. i just want you to know that im sorry and i regret everything i did.
sun: holy shit
ryan?: sorry,,, that was really long
sun: no no
sun: i had no idea
sun: im sorry
ryan?: dont be sorry
sun: but i am
sun: i didnt know you were feeling this way
ryan?: well now you do
ryan?: and im sorry. i should've just talked to you about it in the first place instead of acting like a child
sun: ryan, we were children. we were in eighth grade, middle school, we didn't know any better
ryan?: but me not talking to you until just now?
sun: you were scared
sun: ryan, don't blame yourself for every single thing that happened. i was a part of it too. i shouldnt have kissed u in the first place
sun: i shouldve just talked to you instead of screaming at you.
ryan?: no, you didn't have to. i fully deserved it after what i did.
sun: ryan
sun: don't say bad things about yourself
ryan?: im just so sorry
ryan?: you didnt deserve any of this
sun: calm down
sun: everything is okay
sun: im not mad
ryan?: you're not?
sun: im not.
sun: we all make mistakes sometimes
ryan?: mine wasn't just a little mistake though..
sun: hey
sun: calm down
sun: im glad you talked to me about this. im sorry for ignoring you, too. and i forgive you
ryan?: you do?
sun: yes, i do
sun: now lets move on from this
sun: how was ur day?
ry: it was,, u know,, usual
ry: besides this haha
sun: haha
sun: was it good though?
ry: it was alright
ry: its a little brighter now tho:)
sun: is this a sun joke
ry: maybe
moon: only a little
sun: pffhshsha
moon: how was your day?
sun: decent
sun: brent beat me up but other than that it was good
moon: holy shit what
moon: i thought he was suspended
sun: he is
sun: idk how but he found me at mcdonalds
moon: are u in any pain??
sun: not anymore
sun: i dont think he left any bruises
moon: thank god
moon: i mean, its not good that he hurt you
moon: but thank god ur alright
sun: :)
sun: im sleepy
moon: u should go to sleep
sun: yeah, maybe i should
sun: hey, do you still live in the same house?
moon: yep, never moved
sun: let's walk to school together tomorrow,,, if u want to
sun: just us
moon: okay, im down
sun: really?
moon: yeah, it'll be fun:)
sun: haha okay
sun: well, i'll see you tomorrow then!
moon: okay!
moon: can i still use the sun&moon names
sun: i dont see why not
moon: okay
moon: well
moon: goodnight sunshine
sun: goodnight cheese rock:)
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2 hearts || ryden
Fanfictionsequel to 2 weeks brendon urie finally meets the unknown person he had been texting for two weeks, but things don't go as planned when he finds out who he is.
