Black Rose

1.

                                      Ryan

I woke up to the sound of little feet running across the floor. I look over to see if Dave was still asleep and sure enough he was, I looked over to see what time it was and the clock read 7:23am. I sat up and yawned, I slipped my feet into my slippers and threw on my robe. I walked into the bathroom connected to our room, I brushed my teeth and did my business. Once I finished, I stepped out the room and saw Kairi trying to climb into the crib. I sighed, "Kai why are you doing? Your brother is sleep." I made my way to the nursery and saw that our 5 week old son Kameron. The last year has been a good one to say the least, Kairi was now a badass 3 year old who definitely gave us a run for our money. But overall she was a sweet little girl, now as far a Kam goes he's a lot different from what Kairi was. When she was a baby she was mean to everybody but he's so sweet, makes me wonder if he was switched at birth. Deciding names was the hardest part, I wanted to keep it going with the letter K meanwhile babe on the other hand wanted him to be a junior. But last minute he said he liked the idea, now if we have another kid I don't know what to do for names. Kam was still asleep so I picked up Kairi and carried her to her room, she must've just woke up cause she wasn't wide awake just yet. But she had to get ready cause she was going to visit grandma for the day. Dave's mother and I were on better terms and I knew she wouldn't do anything to put my child in harms way. Cause I know she was my mother in law but I would gladly act an ass if something was to happen to Kai. I got her clothes together and ran her some bath water, I put a few toys in the tub and she started taking off her pajamas. She was learning how to bath herself which was another task, she's been potty trained which was actually easy. While I helped her with the soap Dave came in, "good morning." he said kissing her on the forehead and pecking me on the lips. "good morning." Kairi and I both said. He walked out and shortly returned with Kam in his arms. "What's the move for today?" he asked as I got Kai out the tub. "She was gonna go to your moms. I told you this the other day." I said looking over at him. "I must've forgot, my bad." I simply nodded and dried her off. I then grabbed the baby lotion and put it on her. I would've let her pick out her outfit but she likes trying to wear winter clothes in the middle of summer, so I just paired some jeans with a t shirt. Once she was dressed, me and babe exchanged kids he carried her down the stairs to kitchen following behind me. "What do you want for breakfast?" I asked sitting Kam in the swing. "Whatever you feel like cooking bae." he said sitting Kai next to him in the chair. I decided on something simple eggs, waffles and bacon. I wasn't really in the mood to cook this morning since I had been up majority of the night with the baby. Not only that Santana had emailed me about business and he wanted to meet up for lunch to discuss that. Even though technically I'm on maternity leave the grind don't stop. Dave has been in the office a lot since we've been married, although I know he's working so hard for our family it would be nice to spend at least one night together. He works late nights and by the time he does come home everyone's asleep. He stayed home with us the first week with me and Kam coming home from the hospital but afterwards it's been work work work. I was snapped out of my thoughts by Dave calling my name. "You don't hear me calling you? I said I was gonna just get dressed and grab something to eat on my way to work."
Instead of saying something smart and starting an argument I simply forced a smile on my face and nodded. Although deep down my feelings were hurt, he kissed me on the cheek and headed up the stairs. I sighed and started cooking, I was almost finished cooking when he left out the door. I fought back tears cause this was becoming a daily thing. And you would think he would be home earlier due to the fact that he isn't single and we now have 2 kids. It's hard trying to manage my business, Kairi and Kam, as well as my now nonexistent social life. And I guess maybe he feels since he is working that's an excuse to not be here but it isn't. I love him to death and everyone knows that but sometimes I wonder if he feels the same way still. I gathered my composure and fixed Kairi her plate, and sat it in front of her. I still cut up her waffles cause I still feel like she's so small and she could choke. I ruffled her curls and kissed her forehead, she said thank you and said her grace. Kam was starting to wake up so I picked him up out of the swing and carried him to the nursery, I changed his diaper and got his bottle ready. It was a hard decision on if I wanted to breast feed him or not cause I breast fed Kairi but the difference is I'm way more busy now than I was back then, when I first had Kairi I was in the process of starting my business now 3 years later I'm a successful business owner so it's hard to trying to work, take care of my kids and whatnot. I was sad about it cause I wanted to have that bond with him too but only time will tell. I sat on the couch and fed him while Kai ate, there was a knock on the door. I sighed and stood to my feet, I looked through the peephole and opened the door. "Hey baby mama." Brooke greeted coming inside. "Hey girl." I said closing the door behind her. "Hey TT." Kairi greeted her while still eating. "Hey baby cakes." She took a seat next to me on the couch. "Girl you look exhausted." she said examining my face. "I was up all night." I said letting out a yawn. "And where the hell was Dave?" she said with a frown across her face. "The office." when I said that I knew I struck a nerve. "Why isn't he here helping you.. these are his kids too." she was right but I didn't wanna have this conversation with Kairi around. She loved her daddy and she refused to hear anybody bad mouth him. "Brooke.." she threw her hands up. "We'll talk about it later." she said watching me burp Kam. I just didn't want to lead anybody to believe that we were having problems, cause we were no longer dating we're married and I wanna keep our problems between us no matter how bad I feel.

Dave

After I left this morning I stopped and got something to eat and headed to work. I loved my family I do but I wanna get out, I'm always in daddy mode it's like I lost myself. I know I told Ryan I wanted another baby but I didn't remember it being like this with Kairi. The sleepless nights, early mornings, getting myself and sometimes 2 kids together is a lot. Work was the only place I wasn't stressed at, it was more so fun for me.

Ryan

After Brooke left, I got dressed and made sure the kids were ready. Miss Pam stayed down the street from us so I decided to walk Kairi there instead of driving cause it wouldn't hurt for me to walk and lose these last 25 pounds. Kairi made me take her picture before we left, and I snapped a picture of Kam in his stroller while we walked. I posted the 2 of them on my Instagram.

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I locked my phone deciding I would go through the comments later, I used one hand to push the stroller and the other to hold Kai's hand. The walk wasn't far so we made it there in no time, I knocked on the door and I heard her say that she was coming. When she opened the door a smile formed on her face, "Is that my baby Kai?" she said bending down to hug Kai. Kairi was always excited to see Miss Pam, and the feeling was mutual between the two. "Come in, come in." she said letting us in. I handed her Kairi's overnight bag. "Why are you walking when you just had the baby?" she said. "I need to lose these few pounds, I'll be fine." I said peeking at Kam to see if he was still awake which he was. He was just looking around, I sat on the couch. "How you been doing?" she asked peeking into the stroller. Kam frowned at her and I wanted to laugh but I didn't have the energy to. "I've been fine, just raising the kids and working." I said forcing a smile cause I didn't wanna tell her that her son wasn't much help when it came to raising our kids. "That's good, I'm proud of the two of you." she said praising the both of us. I nodded and smiled while thanking her, I was sleepy as hell but I couldn't really sleep. I barely had time for myself these days, I can't tell you last time I been in the nail shop. We spoke for a few more minutes before the baby and I left. I gave Kairi a hug and kiss and told her that I loved her and headed back home. The walk was pleasantly quiet the only thing you could hear was Kam cooing at nothing in particular. Once I made it home I spent the rest of the day working around his schedule. I ended up inviting Santana over so we could discuss business, even he could see that I was slowly shutting down. I just hoped Dave could get it together cause I wasn't sure how much more I could take..

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Heeeey y'all long time no see lol, thoughts on first chapter? 👀