Black Rose

8.

                                        Ryan

I was woke up to someone beating on my door, I got up and slipped on my robe. The beating continued, I opened the door and there stood a drunk Dave. I sighed cause I didn't have time for this shit tonight, we said everything we had to say to each other. "How did you get here? Matter of fact why are you here the kids aren't here." I said closing my robe. I only had on a oversized t shirt with a pair of his boxers underneath the robe. "I'm sorry baby." he slurred his words coming in. I laughed in his face cause this nigga couldn't be serious. "Yeah sure you are." I said walking away leaving him standing there. "Ryannnnn?" he called out as he followed me to the back. "Go home." I said trying to push him out my room. He swept me off my feet and started kissing on my neck. "Move. Put me down." I said trying to get out of his grasp. "Lemme make it up to you." he said heading towards my room which I quickly objected, him fucking my brains out won't wash away years of pain. Once he sat me on my feet I quickly closed myself in the closet. I started throwing on something to cover myself up, once I walked out this nigga was laying in my bed completely naked. "Oh hell nah." I said picking up his clothes handing them to him, but of course he pulled me on top of him. "I'm sorry Ry. I love your fine ass and I didn't mean what I said." He mumbled in my ear but I wasn't trying to hear it. "Yeah you meant it so if you don't mind leaving, go to someone who you're attracted to." I said smartly. His hands started to roam my body, I went to stand up but he held onto my shirt. "David, it's time for you to leave." I said sternly hoping he would take the hint and leave. Due to the fact he was still stronger than me, he pulled me on top of him once again. He started kissing on my neck, whispering how sorry he was and that he never meant to hurt me..

                                            Dave

I woke up the next morning in an unfamiliar room, I looked around and realized it was Ryan's room but why was I here? I stood to my feet and grabbed my boxers putting them on. My eyebrows raised in confusion as I noticed all my clothes on the floor, did we fuck? My mind was wondering what hell I did to end up in her bed, then when she came in she didn't make it no better. "Okay now that you're awake and functioning can you please leave?" She asked clearly annoyed. "Yeah just tell me what's happened leading up to here." I said rubbing my temple, this hangover was gonna be the death of a nigga. "Well you showed up at my front step drunk as shit, apologized, and tried to have sex with me." she said pulling up her robe and she had bruises on her thighs and hickeys all over her neck. "Did we-" I went to say but she cut me off by saying no. "But you did try, you gave me head but I stopped it before anything else happened." she said fixing her robe. "You still hadn't covered it up?" I asked noticing that she still had my name tattooed on her hip. "No, it hurt so whenever I'm ready I'll get it covered." she said looking at it. Her name was on my neck so whenever you seen me you saw it. The only persons name I haven't gotten was Kam's and that's because I was still trying to figure out where to put it, I didn't wanna have it on my face cause Kairi's was right there so I had to figure that out.
"Don't cover it.." I said grabbing her hand which to my surprise she didn't jerk away. "Why? In a few months we won't be together.." she had her eyebrows raised in confusion. I sighed cause maybe I'm tryna force her to try to stay with me when I've done nothing but disrespect her. "I understand but I won't cover yours up, I don't care if we're not together but you've played a major part in my growth even though you may not see it but I'm gonna use you as motivation for me to get my shit together. You and our kids, cause even though I may not show it, I do love you. And what I said yesterday I really didn't mean it, I said it out of anger. Was it right? No. Just it justify it? No. And if you hate me I don't even blame you cause I've been nothing but an asshole and disrespectful, but I swear on my life if you please give me one last chance I'll do right." I pleaded. Her face softened, "I just need to think about all of this Dave seriously, and you constantly begging isn't helping. Can we just keep it about the kids for now? You should've realized what you had, I'm not one of these bird brain ass bitches and I don't know how many times I've told you this. And I know you're not interested in me anymore hell I couldn't even remember the last time you gave me a compliment up until the other day. I love you but once again I love myself more. We just need time apart, I'll postpone the divorce but we will be separated until further notice. You really need to prove to me that you're willing to change cause I refuse to keep putting up with your shit." she said sitting down. I nodded understanding why she felt the way she felt. "But I do have a question..." I looked over at her and waited for her to continue. "What was it they had that I don't? Why aren't I good enough for you?" I saw the tears forming in her eyes but she refused to let them fall.

Ryan

I hadn't really ever seen Dave cry unless it was something that truly hurt or bothered him. He sat next to me and wrapped his arms around me, "there's absolutely nothing wrong with you, there was never anything wrong wit' you. It's me, I know we married but one day I feel like you'll find somebody your age and way more attractive than a nigga with hella tattoos on his face. Let's be real Ry, you're only 25. You young and beautiful what nigga wouldn't want you, my insecurities jumped out and that's what happened wit Asia. I love you.. and ONLY you." he said wiping the few tears that fell. He never really revealed that he was insecure about our age gap, it's only 6 years but I could see where he was coming from. I made him look at me, "In my eyes nobody walking this earth is more attractive than you, yes we're six years apart but that doesn't bother me, if it bothered you why didn't you say anything to me? We could've discussed it and got through it. If your age or looks bothered me, I would've never even took it there with you, I wouldn't have had sex with you, there would be no Kairi or Kameron, no marriage, no relationship or anything. I love you and only you, I don't want anybody else and you should know that." I said with a sigh. "You're right, maybe we do need space. I'll give you your space and we can work on ourselves as individuals, strictly about the kids." he said looking at me. I nodded and I was just glad we could have a conversation without hollering and me walking away. I just wondered what would would happen in the future..