Against All Boundaries

Chapter Ten

Mabilis ang naging usad ng panahon.

Ganon talaga siguro kapag may saya kang nararamdaman.

Gigising ka sa umaga nang magaan ang pakiramdam.

Anticipating something pleasant as you go on with your day.

Having your lips curve and turn in bright gleaming smiles.

Nakakataba ng puso ang pakiramdam at kaalamang mayroon kang pinagkukunan ng saya.

Maybe not inside your home, but outside.

And that's fine.

That's alright.

Sa mga nagdaang araw at linggo, marami akong napag-tanto.

Naisip kong, may kabilisan yata ang pagiging malapit namin ni Ezrhael.

It was like, one day, we completely are strangers, then one incident at that mall, ka-boom! We've turned too comfortable so instantly it seems surreal.

Minsan na ring sumagi sa isip kong parang napakabilis naman yatang nagkagusto sa akin ni Ezrhael.

I must admit, I kind of questioned his feelings as to how real it could be, and how sincere it is.

But we're just dating yet anyway.

He was supposed to court me in the 'formal' way he wants, but I have a lot of things to forbid.

I told him I don't really find my self fond of material things. Flowers, chocolates, gifts, name it. That's why he was left with no other option but to just exert much more efforts in random things. May it be small or big.

And he didn't fail to show me his sincerity.

His affection and care is always obvious in the way he treat me. Ngunit hindi nakakauta. Tama lamang upang maipahayag at mas mapagpatunay na gaya nga ng sinabi niya noon, 'He isn't playing'.

He seems serious about this.

And in spite of all those things I've seen in him, hindi ko pa naman siya sinasagot.

I have my plans.

Balak kong sa kaarawan ko siya sasagutin.

Kung papayagan ng pagkakataon.

At hindi na iyon katagalan.

It's already December.

Late October nang magkakilala kami.

Mahigit isang buwan na pala ang nakalipas mula noon.

Mula nang araw na napahiya ako sa lady's room ng Italian restauramt na iyon dahil lang sa mali kong pagkakaunawa ng sinambit niya.

Wala namang naging kupas ang mga biro at banat niya sa nagdaang buwan.

He was consistent.

He didn't change.

He probably improved, more and more. But never changed in any way that'll make me feel upset.

Nakakalungkot nga lamang isipin na kahit pa gaano ako kasaya tuwing magkasama kami.

I always get f*cked up whenever I hear the gossips and the people's conversations behind me.

"I never liked her! Mas maganda talaga kung si Zari nalang ang nagustuhan ni Ezrha eh! Babagay pa sila. Of all we know, that Zophoeah is a fraud. Mabait at walang kapintasan kapag nakaharap kay Ezrhael, pero kita naman natin kung gaano kagaspang ang ugali no'n at ni hindi man lang marunong bumati at makingiti sa daan! What a proud bitch. Porke't anak mayaman! We're rich din naman! Kahit na mas makapal ang pera ng angkan nila!"