I stopped attending school for the mean time.
I remained at home as Tito and the lawyers processed the things out.
They were doing it silently and away from the ears of the society.
I don't know how will they gonna do it. But to worry about it won't help me in any way. Just as how I'll be sending them no help by doing so.
They were already working the things they've decided to do.
At parte roon ang paglipat ko ng paaralan.
I don't know if I would feel fine about it.
Mom has also pushed her wailings.
Ipinahukay niya nga ang katawan ni Zariyah at muli niya iyong pinagluksaan.
Siya lang.
Hindi na pinaalam pa kahit kanino.
Even her other relatives and sibling weren't anymore informed.
Ang Tito Nicolo lang ang may alam tungkol sa nangyari.
And we're very thankful for his presence and help.
Lubha akong nagpapasalamat na naririto ang Tito at hindi ko maaatim na isiping iwanan ang lahat ng ito kay Noah.
Nakasalampak ako sa malayong silya habang pinagmamasdan ang Mommy sa kaniyang pagbababangluksa.
The memories of that night kept on hunting me.
Isang gabi pa lamang ang lumipas pero parang ang tagal na nito sa pakiramdam ko.
The way my own mother wished for me to die.
It's burning inside.
Hindi pa nakatulong ang unti-unting panunumbalik sa aking utak ang pinag-ugatan ng lahat ng ito.
That night.
That accident.
The night on our own birthday. The same night when Zariyah lost her precious life. The same night when I let the devils in me reign and take control.
The night when I planted it's seed. And now it has already propagated. Earned a fruit with the toxins that's killing me.
Nakakatawa.
I planted the poison, yet I'm the very first to eat it's fruit. In spite of knowing it's toxicity.
Tunay ngang mangmang.
Walang patid ang pag-iyak ng Mommy at halos buksan niya pa ang kabaong, kung hindi lang siya pinigilan ng Tito at ni Noah kanina ay baka nga ginawa na niya.
Hindi naman ako lumapit.
Wala akong lakas na lumapit.
O humingi ng tawad sa kapatid ko.
I feel so deprived of the right to ask an apology.
Dahil kung sa akin ginawa, hinding hindi ako uunawa.
To ask for an apology about something I did without feeling sorry at all, is rabbish.
Ni hindi ko alam kung tunay bang pinagsisisihan ko iyon.
Cause up until now, I still feel envious.
And it sucks.
How I never learned from my mistakes.
It was almost as if my failures did me nothing but plain failures it self.
Wala akong natututunan.
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