Against All Boundaries

Chapter Twenty-Five

I was asking my self why did I ever considered being on a public washroom, still?

Nakalimutan ko yata ang kamalasan ko sa restrooms.

Una kaming nag-karoon ng interaksiyon, sa ganitong lugar din naganap.

The last time I tried to use the girl's washroom back at our university, I have been surprised by the mouths of the nosy girls, talking about me and Ezrhael. Voicing out their rubbish chastisements over me.

Mula ng magkakilala kami, eto ang pangatlo. At sana, magtanda na ako.

I was avoiding him.

But it didn't cross my mind that I gave him an access when I left Zariyah's friends on that f*cking table.

And now, I'm here again.

In front of him.

Tinatatagan ko ang sarili ko.

I don't want to recall the last time we had an interaction.

He was so wounded that time.

And I was equally bruised.

I'm torn. Up until now.

At alam kong sarili kong kamangmangan ang dahilan no'n.

But I don't wanna smash it on my face any harder than it tries to do.

Bagong taon na, pero walang bago sa mga kabuktutan ko.

I can almost picture my self rotting.

That was a horrifying vision.

But I dare not to question it.

To do all this is almost a proof that really, my head's rotting already.

Wala na akong ibang nagawa kundi magpakawala ng katangahan.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago nagsalita.

"A word." I looked up at him. He was so still. Calm. But sad.

And I cursed my self for it.

It was all because of me.

"Para saan?" Iniwas ko ang tingin ko dahil duwag ako at mahina.

I am no match with the regality of his eyes.

"Us." Tipid ang kaniyang sagot. But I can feel that he wanted to say a lot of things. He's just too considerable to think about my unwelcoming gestures. Kahit pa parang ipinipiit niya rin naman ako.

Mahina akong natawa.

"Let's talk about us." Ulit niya. "Please."

Napapikit ako saglit dahil sa pakiramdam na hatid ng kaniyang boses.

It was so soothing. Almost so alluring.

But I'm a witch, I say no to enchantments by the others.

Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya.

"I have been wondering, when will you ever realize that your love has already been burried?" Inarko ko ang aking kilay at mabagal iyong sinambit. Na tila ba sa paraang iyon ay mas paniniwalaan niya ako at higit na mauunawaan.

Nakita kong pumikit siya sandali, bago mariing napahilot sa sentido. He licked his lips and swallowed hard as if calming his nerves and gathering all his controls over his fumes, before he looked at me again.

He was still, and calm. But I can see the flames that were trapped in his eyes.

I almost wanted to curse my self again for causing him trouble like this. If only I didn't remember what kind of a hag am I, I shouldn't feel anything for anyone but wickedness.