Against All Boundaries

Chapter Fourty-Four

"You didn't answer my question yet." Ako sa kalagitnaan ng biyahe namin.

May kalayuan ang university sa bahay kaya naman ilang minuto pa kaming ganito.

Ilang minuto pa akong magpipigil ng hininga.

All just because I get to feel uncomfortable with him this close.

And speaking of close, we were also in a closed space.

Inside his car, I've had my head leaned on the head rest. Trying to feel comfortable.

Or probably, to say 'pretending' to be comfortable is more appropriate.

Knowing I won't anymore be comfortable around him.

Specially, both of us being like this.

But I don't wanna keep the silence.

Dahil napakaraming umuusbong na mga isipin.

Mga katanungan.

Nag-hahanap ng sagot na hindi ko alam kung kailangan ko ba, o gusto ko lang?

But I wanna break the silence that's pushing my thoughts inside my mind.

So I asked him that at least.

Sandali siyang napalingon sa akin mula sa pag-mamaneho.

Nakita ko naman ang pagtataka sa kaniyang mga mata.

I rolled mine, to make it seem at least kind of lighter.

"What are you doing here?"

Malakas ang loob kong sabihin iyon dahil hindi ko naman siya tinitingan.

Kahit ang mandaya at subukan siyang silipin sa gilid ng aking mga mata ay hindi ko ginawa.

I just can't take it without feeling uncomfortable.

So I played on the safe part.

"Oh, that . . . " He trailed off. Probably he was checking me.

But the bouquets that were given to me were covering my face so he can't really see me throughly.

Naisip ko kasing hindi nga siguro magandang itapon ko lang ito. Kung gano'n lang naman kasi ang gagawin ko ay dapat hindi ko na tinanggap in the first place.

Yet I needed to do it lately.

But that's not anymore part of my problem.

What should I care about as of now is Ezrhael.

Whom I am so positive that's looking at me.

Nagpatuloy siya kalaunan.

"Don't worry. Hindi naman ako magatatagal."

Nagsalubong ang mga kilay ko.

I realized, covering my face, and tolerating my 'hinding confidence' is stupid, so I decided to quit.

Nilingon ko siya sa wakas.

"What do you mean? Hindi mo yata naintindihan ang tanong ko, Ezrhael." Pinagkibit-balikat ko ang malayo niyang sagot sa tanong ko.

Pinagmasdan ko siyang umangat ang mga gilid ng labi dahil sa pilyong ngiti. Then he started pouting to suppress his smile as he purposely averted his gaze from me.

Pinanliitan ko siya ng mga mata.

Enjoying this, huh?

Hinintay kong maubos ang tawa niyang hindi naman nakawala.