All I Want - Sequel

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Surgery day.
The scariest day for us all, especially Stassie.
Tom and I finally convinced Haz to come home and take a shower and eat something that isn't hospital food. He's a wreck, he hasn't slept, and he can't even function at this point.
"God Dammit where's my phone?!" He exclaims, searching the main room.
"Slow down, I'll help you find it." I say.
"I can't fucking slow down Lia! I possibly only have a few hours left with her and I don't want to waste it trying to find my shit don't you fucking understand that?!" He yells at me.
"Mate." Tom says calmly. "I feel for you, I understand you're upset, but do not yell at Lia."
Haz noticeably calms down, and continues looking for his phone.
"Hazzy." I say, catching his attention. "It's in your pocket."
He looks down, seeing the top of his phone peaking out.
"Oh.. sorry I'm just.." he shakes his head.
I pull him into a hug, and he completely falls apart. He cries and cries and cries, letting himself fully feel the effects of what's going on. He's had to suppress it and be strong for Stass, but he needs comfort too.
"It's okay.. it's gonna be okay." I sigh.
"I can't loose her Lia.. she's my whole future.."
"You won't loose her. She's going to get through this Haz. I know she will." I try, but even I don't fully believe the words coming out of my mouth.
"I don't know if I can do this without her." He cries.
"Stop, don't talk like that." I say firmly, holding his face in my hands. "You can do this Haz. You are one of the strongest men I know and you can do this. I've got you, okay?"
He nods, and hugs me tightly once more. Poor boy.. if Stassie doesn't make it through this I am going to have to do everything in my power to make sure Haz doesn't go down a bad road.
"I love you. I've got you." I assure him.

•Harrison's Pov•
We all sit around Stassies bed, waiting for noon to hit because that's when she will be going into surgery. I've been sitting at her side, holding her hand for over an hour now, trying to memorize every last detail of her beautiful face.
"Can you guys give us just a minute?" She asks Lia and Tom, who both agree and leave the room. Stassie turns to me, and grabs my face in her hands.
"In going to say some stuff, and I need you to just accept it and not tell me to stop, okay?" She says.
"Okay.." I hesitantly agree.
"You're the only family I've got.. so my car and stuff, you just keep it or sell it, I don't care." She starts, and I already realize what she's doing.
"Stass please-"
"You agreed to let me say what I need to say." She states.
"Fine.. continue.." I nod.
"I want to be cremated, no stupid coffin. Oh and I want Harry Styles to be played at my funeral." She says and I can't help the small laugh that escapes my mouth, at the same time the tears escape my eyes. She giggles along with me, wiping the stray tear away with her thumb.
"And this next one, is the most important one." She smiles at me. "You are so young and you have your entire life ahead of you-"
"Don't say it." I shake my head at her.
"If I don't make it, I want you to move on. Forget about me and find a girl that you love, marry her, have babies with her, and live a long happy life with her."
I can't even see through the tears at this point, god it fucking hurts. My heart feels like it's been torn out of my chest.
"I don't need another girl.. I have you. I love you. I want to marry you." I say.
"Haz if I don't live through this-"
"Tell me you'll marry me." I interrupt her.
"What?" Her eyes widen.
"Tell me that when you wake up from surgery.. and you're okay, that you will be my fiancé." I breathe out.
"Haz.. are you asking me to marry you?" She questions.
"Yes. And I don't care about a wedding, you don't want one? Fine. I don't care. I just want you."
I see her eyes glow, a smile forming on her face, she wraps her arms around me tightly, and I lean back to kiss her lips passionately.
"Yes. I will marry you. Big cheesy wedding and all." She says.
I can't even be bothered to think about anything else right now because I have my girl back. No matter what happens, I will always know that she wanted to marry me.
There's a knock on the door, and the doctor walks in, Tom and Lia following in behind her.
"Hi there Stassie, are you ready?" She asks.
"As much as I can be.." she sighs.
Lia wraps her arms around her, squeezing her tightly. I've been so caught up in my own feelings that I never even stopped for a moment to think about how Lia is feeling about all of this. Her and Stassie have been best friends for five years now, and I haven't even asked her if she's okay. I'm a bad friend..
"I love you. I'll see you in six hours." She says.
"I love you too Lia."
Next Tom moves in, hugging Stassie too.
"When I wake up I'm going to be stealing your wife for a while to keep me company as I recover." Stass comments.
"I expect nothing less." Tom smiles. "Good luck, we will be right here when you wake up."
"Alright.. let's go to the OR." Doctor Miller says.
Stass turns to me, quickly squeezing my hand.
"I love you." She says.
It's been far too long since I've heard those words come out of her mouth. I missed it.
"I love you too." I say, and peck her lips before the nurses roll her out.
As soon as she's out the door, Lia starts to break down. I pull her into my arms, and hold her closely.
"We have six hours.. I'll stay here in case there in an update, you two should go home and eat, get some rest, and relax. I will text you if I hear anything." I encourage.
"I can't just leave." Lia says.
"Darling please, you've barely slept." Tom tries.
"What if something goes wrong?" She asks.
"Like I said, I will call you with any updates. I promise."
She looks at me for a moment, before simply nodding. I can see how exhausted she is. She's had it pretty hard lately, especially with knowing that Derek is back so she needs to chill out and think about herself for a bit.
"I'll see you in a few hours." I say.
"Alright.. bye Hazzy." She says.
"See you soon mate." Tom nods.
I wave goodbye, and they leave. I need this alone time to process everything.. I can't keep pushing it out of my head. She is in there right now, and even the littlest mistake could make me loose her forever. I don't know if I believe in a god, but I still say a prayer because if he does exist, I need his help more than ever right now.