All I Want - Sequel

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•Toms Pov•
I feel empty inside... watching the love of my life leave the room completely upset. Every piece of me feels like it has shattered. I didn't plan on this happening.. I pretty much forgot that I had even done that. Besides, Lydia always said she never wanted kids. I never thought she would go through with it.

I can't lie.. I definitely thought long and hard about not being involved but what kind of person would I be if I abandoned my child? Whether it be with the love of my life or not.. I can't do that to a kid. I wish this hadn't of happened at all.. but it has. All I can do now is be the best father I can be, while being the best husband I can be.

"You fucking idiot." Haz says, the palm of his hand colliding with the side of my face, a stinging pain coming from the slap. I clutch my cheek, my eyes shooting up at him.
"What the fuck?!" I exclaim.
"What do you think you're doing?" He shakes his head.
"I'm doing whats right." I state.
"What's right? So Lydia is gonna start coming over for family dinners and shit? What about Christmas? Did you even think this through?"

He's right.. I didn't realize just how much this will affect our lives. It's not just another baby coming into the picture. It's my ex becoming part of the family..
"I don't have a choice, Haz." I sigh.
"Yeah you fucking do. You don't have to be that kids dad. You're choosing to be." He says.
"It has my blood! It is my baby!" I exclaim.
This is going to fuck up my entire plan in a million and one ways but I refuse to be the man that abandons their child. Period. There is never a good enough reason to abandon a baby and leave them to grow up feeling unwanted.

"You should leave." He says.
"I can't just leave Lia like this." I sigh.
"Trust me, I think you leaving would be what's best for her right now."
I stand to my feet, feeling the smallest bit of hope that Lia will come running back out and hug me and tell me that we're going to make this work.. but she doesn't. So I turn towards the door, and head out without another word.

I get in my car and pull out my phone to text Lydia. She said she has an ultrasound today and if I'm going to let this affect my life, I'm going to be as apart of this baby as I can be.
Tom: I'd really like to come to the ultrasound today, what time is it?
I wait a minute, and my phone dings.
Lydia: no thanks.. I'm not comfortable with you coming yet.
Really?.. shes not going to let me experience my child's ultrasound? That's fucking stupid. She will have to let me go sooner or later because I'm not just going to let her push me aside. This is my baby too.

I call Lias assistant, George, and put the phone to my ear.
"Good morning Mr. Holland." He answers.
"Morning George, could you please order five dozen sunflowers and send them to my house please." I say.
I'm gonna have to butter up my wife, and this is a good way to start. I don't think anything can fix this, but she needs to see that even through all of this I will still be the loving, attentive husband I have always been.
"Marriage troubles sir?" George almost asks jokingly.
"You have no idea.."

•Lias Pov•
I can't believe it.. I really can't. Tom and I fought so hard for our baby, this was going to be a special time for us. The baby shower, the ultrasounds, the birth.. it is something we had to work for. And now he's going to have all of it with another woman. I understand this wasn't his choice, and I understand why he's made the decision to be a part of it, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.

"You can stay another night." Stassie says softly as I shakily grab my keys and bag.
"No.. I need to talk to him. I need to know what's going to happen and I need to know now because this is just going to drive me crazy." I sigh.
As much as I want to pretend like none of this is happening, that's not an option. I just need to know how this is going to work or I won't be able to sleep at night.

I say goodbye to my friends, and head out to go back home. I punch in the gate code and pull into the driveway. As I pull in I see another car there, and almost instantly feel a sinking feeling in my stomach. It's her. I just know it's her.
I get out of the car, and as I'm walking towards the door it opens, revealing Lydia and Tom. Knew it.

"I'll call you- oh hey Amelia!" Lydia smiles widely at me. You've got to be kidding me. How can she act like all of this is okay? "I was just dropping off the 12 week ultrasound photos."
Twelve weeks? She's barely showing. I'm only half that and I'm already gaining baby weight. Wonderful. Just another thing for her to make me insecure about.
"Well anyways- see you guys later!" She smiles, and heads off to her car. Dumb bitch.

I walk inside, and Tom shuts the door behind us.
"I'm so glad your home." He says with relief.
"Really? She's coming to our house now?" I ask.
"Lia it was just to drop off some photos of my kid." He states and it sends a shockwave of pain through my heart. His kid.. with another woman. A woman who is further along than me so I'll be experiencing all of this for the first time, but he will have already experienced it with her.

I look down at the table, seeing the ultrasound photos of the baby, and it hits me. This is real.. that's his baby.. I pick up the photo, looking it over with hurt in my heart.
"Cute Huh?" He smiles.
I can't fucking do this.. I can't.
I set the photo down, and quickly make my way back to the room, Tom following behind me. I open the door and my eyes widen when I see so many giant bouquets of sunflowers sitting around the room. This is ridiculous.
"Surprise." Tom smiles.

I scoff, looking around at the gesture. I turn to my husband, seeing a big smile on his face.
"Really? You thought flowers would help?" I ask.
"Well yeah.." he shrugs.
"You're having a baby with your ex girlfriend and you thought this would somehow fix everything?"
He sighs, giving me pleading eyes as he reaches out for my hand. I pull away, taking a step back.
"You're not even going to let me touch you?" He asks.
"Do you understand how hurtful it is that you thought flowers would help?" I shake my head.

He thinks that every little issue can be fixed with flowers or sex. He thinks that I could never get mad or stay mad at him. Sure, maybe it's not okay for me to be directly mad at him for this. But I can be mad at the situation. I don't deserve to have to go through this, especially while I'm pregnant and emotional. He's just going to have to understand that this isn't going to just go away like everything else.

"Tom.. you're having a baby with her." I say, feeling tears slip my eyes and run down my cheeks.
He starts to reach his hand out to me, but lets it fall back to his side, knowing his touch will not comfort me right now.
"I'm so sorry this happened.." he says almost in a whisper.
I look around the room with sadness and irritation. I grab my pillow, and my charger from the bedside.
"Where are you going?" He asks.
"I can't handle all of this right now. I'm sleeping in the guest room. Goodnight Tom.."