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[A/N: if your uncomfortable with the following; Suicide, E.D (Eating Disorder), Blood and Self harm. You are welcome to leave <3]

'Beep' 'Beep' 'Beep'. My alarm goes off which feels like the 100th time, I groan and smack my phone which made it shut up. Finally, I roll over and check the time '8:23am'

I lay in my bed for like another 5 minutes before getting ready for online learning, I rub my eyes and make my way towards the bathroom closing the door and stripping my clothing off before turning on the shower and hopping in.

I stand there my arms crossed while my hair is damp and is at my shoulderblades, I groan and put some shampoo in my hair and start scrubbing it in. I then close my eyes and wash it out and do the same with conditioner, I stand there before running my pointer finger on the scars that were left.

-Flashback-

'Your worthless... kill yourself alr... die... no-one likes you... your nothing... your ugly... your too fat loose weight... why can't yoh be like your sister' my thoughts repeating themselves getting louder and louder. They wont go away, just go away. I sit in my bathroom crying, running my hands through my hair. I shakily grab the razor thats sitting on the sink.

'Die' cut. 'Your nothing' cut. 'Kys' cut. 'Be prettier' cut. 'Be skinner' cut. 'Be like your sister' cut. I cut deeper and deeper each time, I burst out crying sitting there wondering what did I do so wrong. I sit there emotionless staring at the roof. I get up and start turning on the sink tap, I let out a shaky breath and put my bloody wrists under. I clean them and apply bandages.

-Back to IRL-

I realise I started to cry, I then sigh before wiping my tears away and turning off the shower. I then start getting changed for the day, once I'm changed I go to the mirror and look at my outfit.

(Outfit above^)

I run my hands over my stomach, hearing it grumble wanting food. I sigh and hug my stomach, I look over at my PC. I walk over to it and sit in my gaming chair, I start up my PC and while I waited for my first class to start I checked twitter.

|@Dream|
If you didnt already go check out @BobaTea SMP's Finale. Go stream it now it was insane :)))
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|@TommyInnit|
No. I don't listen to a green bitch bastard. :)
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|@WilburSoot|
Replying to @TommyInnit: Stream w/ me now! Before I get motherinnit. >:(
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|@User|
Just me or was @hurtinqtears acting good?!
*Liked by creator*
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|@User2|
Replying to User: It was amazing like how?!
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|@BobaTea
Thanks for everyone that watched my SMP Finale, I just want to say how great everyones acting was espically @hurtinqtears ;)
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|@User1
I agree @hurtinqtears acting was amazing :) But just me or was the ending of the SMP amazing.
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|@Dav1dSucks
Replying to User1: I argee but like our acting skills got carried by @hurtinqtears.
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-Irl-

I sit there staring at my PC screen, why was everyone being nice? I sigh before typing a tweet thanking everyone abt my acting skills, after a couple minutes of writing the tweet I stare at it and start to overthink. Did I write to much-

'Shut up... Post it... There only posting this to make you feel better... just post it' my thoughts screaming at me.

I press post and get rid of the twitter tab and look at the time '8:56am' 4 more minutes until I have to join a online class.
(A/N: I do not know how to use twitter please dont attack me if its different)
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|@hurtinqtears
Hi everyone, just wanted to thank all of the people that said 'I carried the acting' I think that everyone did a good job tbh, but BobaTea keeps yelling at me bc of me saying that lmao :) Also thanks for all the support I luv you all look after yourselves <3
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*comments off*
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I join the zoom call anixous as always, I never know if someone will recognise me from my voice.

'No-one would notice you... your to ugly to be noticed... no-one would notice a small facless streamer' My teacher then cuts me out of my thoughts as he says my name marking the roll.

"Francis Darwin" My teacher says my name as he marks the roll, I sigh.

"Here" I say unmuting my mic and putting it on mute immediately.

'Skip to end of school bc its mostly Boring also go stream LoveJoy'

I sigh as I see the time '3:15pm' I havent come out of my room for a full 3 days, no food, no water. Yes I've had 1 shower and yes I used the toliet since I have one connected to my room, I sigh as my phone lights up.

-BobaTea is calling you-
[ACCEPT] or [DECLINE]

I stare at the buttons why now, just why now. I sigh mentally before clicking accept, I wait until BobaTea (Josh) speaks.

"Hello?" BobaTea asks after about 1 minute.

"Hi" I reply quietly since I'm exhausted from all the work I've done

"Im streaming btw also chat wants to know if your ok, you had your comments off on your recent tweet. Also your trending on twitter" BobaTea says I stare at my screen still processing that last bit.

"Free clout?" I thought-out-loud not even realising until BobaTea started laughing.

"Oh shit did I say that out loud" I say mentally slapping my face, 'great' I think.

"Yeh you did. bahahahahah thats getting clipped lmao. Its clipped. Your for sure getting free clout now!" BobaTea says cracking up, I sigh and just stare at my screen.

"Yess free clout" I say, laughing right after.

"So why are you trending all over Twitter? You're literally everywhere" BobaTea asks concerned, I just giggle.

"Mmhm I don't know all I do is stream Minecraft and scary games" I say stretching my back, I then yawn and look around my room.

"I haven't done anything the past 3 days but edit, I've legit have not left my room for 3 days." I say going back to my normal monotone voice, I then see a photo of my mum and I.

It all starts flooding back.
She starts flooding back.
Everything floods back.
But its ok...
I gotta put on a act for them.

"Hello? You there still?" BobaTea yells through the headset, I mentally sigh.

"Yeah I'm there why?" I reply throwing the photo in the bin, a few tears shed but I wipe them and continue cleaning my desk.

"Have you eaten or have had drink the past 3 days? Answer me honestly." BobaTea asks very stern, kinda freaks me out.

"Yes I have I ate like an hour ago" I lie after about 1 minute of trying to figure out what to say.

"Alright then bye" BobaTea says, before hanging up.

"Mhmm, ok" I say, I look at my door and just can't seem to find any motivation to get up.

"Whats the point? Whats the point..." I say looking at my feet, then back at the door with teary feet.

Whats wrong with me?

With out realsing I reached the door, I just chuckled. I moved... I did it.
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(A/N: Sorry it took awhile to edit, Im now currently making chapter 3 if I can I will publish it today :) Hope you enjoyed this chapter)