mcyt/dsmp x gn reader (discontinued)

Reader + DreamXD + Drista

Sooooooo

turns out I have another idea because pretty song

this is the song "honey I'm home" and it's a Vocaloid song, I'd highly suggest it if you like more "Gorey" music if that makes sense

this book isn't even an x reader thing anymore it's just me writing and a lot of platonic shit and actual plots

please don't ignore the trigger warnings before reading or listening, I am dead serious when I say I care about my audience in general and how my content affects them. all the tws for the song CAN, AND PROBABLY WILL apply to the story.

TW FOR THE MUSIC: Body horror, religious abuse, substance abuse

TW/CW FOR THIS CHAPTER: Body Horror, Heavy Religious themes (lmk if there's anything else I missed)

The lyrics are super well-written efu djnvi

I just copy-pasted the lyrics because I don't want to type it out.

if you highlight the more "cursed" text it should be more readable but it's just
"(DON'T REMEMBER IT
DON'T RETURN TO IT)" over and over.

I did a lot of fucking research and checking for accuracy for this chapter please kill me

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Father said that this world isn't for me
I tried to pray for a new reality
"So, come to me, we can change night into day."
A tied-up moth seemed to know a different way

(̶̯̋̐̓̀͒D̴̩̙͇̬͑̃Ò̶̞͙̯̾̌̚Ņ̶͋͑'̴̨̼̪͌̓͌͊̀Ţ̷̝̤͎̾͋ ̵̣̈́Ȓ̸͚̺̅̊̿̾́E̷̝̝̣͓̙̅̇̍̅͐̿ͅM̴̨̙̦͊̏̎̅͠Ȇ̷̘̯̀̾͑̿̀M̸̫͇̳̲͑͑͘B̶̢̥̖̫̖̦͂͋̎̍̒̕Ê̶̳͙̰̯͇̱̐̎̇́͝R̴̝̬͓͂̎̓͐̕͝ ̶̠͔̭̊̀̋I̸̧̛͇̺͈̻̤̅͋͒͝T̸̴͙̪̰͔̭͍͖̜͓̐͋̅̉͐́̈̒̽͘D̷̨̑̇Ö̷̢͕̪͈̱́̉̾́N̶̛̥̽̅͑̿̚'̸̹̐̊̍͝T̷̥͇͉̰͈͋̃̿ ̷̻͙̲̊͘R̴̺̫͎͚̿̑̀Ę̷̞̮̭̓T̶͔̏̅͂̐U̴̙̪̩̅̄̈R̴̢̡͉̪̙̈́͜Ṇ̸̰̫̓́͝ ̶͕̲̼̖̒́̾̑T̸̻̯͈̈́͝͝O̷̡̙̜͋͘ ̸̰̎̒̔͋͌̓Ĭ̴̻̠̰̮͕̮͆̓̃͝T̶̗̜͇͗́̂ͅ)̶̞̘̫̟̎́̃͐̆

You sat in the empty church. The stained glass depicted a large man, who had three sets of wings on his back, along with a cracked mask and two halos, forming an "X" around his head. The glass let little light in as you clasped your two hands together. Your stoic face gave away no emotion. People yelled in your head, repeatedly telling you to "Don't". You ignored them.

"Oh DreamXD, you have created all the life on this earth, and for that I am grateful. All life you have created balances each other and is all a stable system." 

Oh,
Father tore out the umbilical cord
There's nothing left in the bottle keeping me scored
We'll abandon the scenery in the

(D̴̩̙͇̬͑̃Ò̶̞͙̯̾̌̚Ņ̶͋͑'̴̨̼̪͌̓͌͊̀Ţ̷̝̤͎̾͋ ̵̣̈́Ȓ̸͚̺̅̊̿̾́E̷̝̝̣͓̙̅̇̍̅͐̿ͅM̴̨̙̦͊̏̎̅͠Ȇ̷̘̯̀̾͑̿̀M̸̫͇̳̲͑͑͘B̶̢̥̖̫̖̦͂͋̎̍̒̕Ê̶̳͙̰̯͇̱̐̎̇́͝R̴̝̬͓͂̎̓͐̕͝ ̶̠͔̭̊̀̋I̸̧̛͇̺͈̻̤̅͋͒͝T̸͙̪̰͔̭̐͋̅̉
̴͐́̈̒̽͘D̷̨̑̇Ö̷̢͕̪͈̱́̉̾́N̶̛̥̽̅͑̿̚'̸̹̐̊̍͝T̷̥͇͉̰͈͋̃̿ ̷̻͙̲̊͘R̴̺̫͎͚̿̑̀Ę̷̞̮̭̓T̶͔̏̅͂̐U̴̙̪̩̅̄̈R̴̢̡͉̪̙̈́͜Ṇ̸̰̫̓́͝ ̶͕̲̼̖̒́̾̑T̸̻̯͈̈́͝͝O̷̡̙̜͋͘ ̸̰̎̒̔͋͌̓Ĭ̴̻̠̰̮͕̮͆̓̃͝T̶̗̜͇͗́̂ͅ)̶̞̘̫̟̎́̃͐̆

Rear-view mirror

"I ask that you forgive me and I repent for all my sins. When I sin, I feel most greatly ashamed of myself and turn to you for guidance from the tarnished path I stand on."