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" y/n"

" hey"

" y/n" cruz said.

" y/n" i said my name into the mic and we laughed.

" how you doing" he asked.

" i could be better"

" is this about that song"

" yeah"

" how's your mom" he asked.

" she's surviving.. go to see her everyday i went before i came here" i said.

" do you wish you could be sick instead of her" he asked.

" all the time... she doesn't deserve any of this what so ever" i said

" no she doesn't prayers to your mom from our family to yours" he said.

" thank you"

" now we're gonna listen to your new song then talk about it afterwords" he said.

" let's do it"

" this is y/n new song alright"

" okay there's so much to talk about"

" ask whatever" i said

" what was the concept of this song"

" to show that just because i don't show my very emotional side doesn't mean i'm not emotional, with everything i'm going through right now i'm the most emotional i've been all my life so i put all my thoughts down on paper and turned it into a song"

" okay well you said, i just hope you don't forget, i just hope you love me dead, i just hope that i'll be missed, and if your reminisce i hope you find some shit that helps you benefit, wanna explain that a little more"

" basically i'm just saying if something happened to me, i wanna be loved by the fans and artist the same way they love me now, i don't want people to be sad, i want you guys to remember all the good and motivation i might of gave you and keep pushing yourself" i said.

" okayy make sense there's some meaning behind these wordsss"

" these are crucial times, i wish the pain in me committed suicide, let my mom control my will, leave my friends with a mil, tell them all it's not y'all fault, tell my fans they feel like god"

" i'm going through a very rough time in life about everything as of right now and i just kinda wish the pain i felt would stop, it does hurt not to be actually happy like i used to, my mom helped me with my will last week so yeah, and my fans to me are like the people i look up to, they inspire me to make music and just connect and relate to all of them"

" you know my stress stretches zip code, try go 100 on e, tryin to flip lows into muses, do what i do, if death comes in three then pain comes in twos"

" they say when one person close to you for two more leave out of it well i found out two girls i played basketball with in high school died two weeks ago and i've been feeling that so i know my coach is so that line was for them"

" thank you mom, you're the only thing that keeps me here, i bought depression on the low but it wasn't cheap this year, i think i reached a tier where every day i keep a tear tucked inside the holster, Like I'm tryna conceal a piece in here, I need peace in here
I'll do whatever"