Unguarded Love

26-Sleep Over?

Persephone

I walk into class on Thursday, taking a seat and shucking off my sweater. 

Personally I don't hate the cold, I prefer not to freeze my ass off just trying to walk to class though. 

A few moments after I get settled a familiar presence sits down next to me. 

"Fuck this weather." Asa grumbles as he removes his jacket and beanie. 

I take the said beanie and put it on. 

He looks over at me, a small smile taking over his face. 

"You look adorable wearing my things." he tells me before pecking me on the lips. 

I can't help but smile up at him. 

Things have been going really well with Asa. 

He's been slowly opening up more and more to me. Telling me stories from his past no matter how hard it is for him to share those things. 

Listening to the way he talks about himself hurts me though. He truly believes he wasn't doing enough, that he doesn't deserve things in life because of choices he made in the past. 

I wish he could've done more for his mom but at the end of the day she made her own choices too. She put her son in a dangerous situation because she couldn't leave his step dad. 

I know people in abusive situation are manipulated by their abuser but I can't imagine letting your own son grow up there. 

And his biological dad seems like a piece of work too. He could've tried harder if he truly cared about his son but he gave up easily. 

Watching Asa beat himself up over those who failed him hurts me, all I want to do is wrap my arms around his younger self and tell him how amazing he is and that he didn't deserve the life he was given. 

"Want to stay the night at my place?" I blurt and Asa's eyes widen. 

Usually we end up at his place and he's always the one inviting me over not the other way around. 

I want to prove to him that he can tell me whatever and I will still want him, I won't ever stop wanting him. 

"You sure?" He asks and I nod. 

"Peyton is visiting her sister for the weekend so I have the dorm all to myself." I tell him. 

His hand finds my thigh, giving it a squeeze. 

"Then I'll be there."

* * * 

After classes Asa heads to practice while I tidy up my room. 

Sure he's been in here a few times but never to stay the night and for some reason it feels like a big night. 

A really big night. 

I shower and shave before straightening my hair and putting on a pair of shorts and one of Asa's hoodies I stole.

By eight I hear a knock on my door and I know it's him. 

Breathe Seph it's just Asa, you've had this guys penis in your mouth don't be nervous now. 

I open the door, "Asa, hey." I say and he smiles. God could I be anymore awkward? 

"Hey, baby." I could melt right there. 

I let him inside before closing the door behind him. 

He sets his backpack by my bed before sitting down and I follow, sitting down beside him.