Beauty & The Beast

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Ari Pov

Daddy was a crack fiend, two in the morning
Had us running down the block like a track team
When you burnt the house down and my mother was in it
How could I forget it? The pain is infinite
She's my Queen and I ain't even British, she's the only reason
That I went to school and I finished (yeah)
She told me that I had talent, got on her knees
And prayed for me when I started being violent (okay)
She saw something in me that 'til this day
I don't know if I could be that (yeah)
But I'ma die tryin' and when I'm done cryin' grab the iron
And black out like I'm retiring (kyuh)
Nightmares of you killing my mother
The reason that I sleep with my head under the covers
And they should've thrown a book at you
'Cause I hate you so much that it burn when I look at you

May the lord protect me, as the world gets hectic (I'll keep trying)
My voice projected, my life reflected (keep, keeping on)
May the lord protect me, as the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected
(The more I cry, the more I try)

Damn, I wanna run to you, hold you and kiss you
And tell you how I miss you (I miss you baby)
Thought I would have a son for you but now it's official
It's over and I can't let you go (oh)
But I gotta let you know, all the shit I did made me feel like
I'm dying real slow
'Cause no one understands me
They don't know what to do when I'm hurt
And when I'm angry (kyuh)
You was my friend and my man and my daddy
You was there when that bitch tried to stab me
Anything I ever needed, knew you had me
'Cause of you, all them chicks couldn't stand me
So why I hurt you? That's the question
It took this long, for me to learn my lesson
'Cause now all I want is peace and get drama
Finally understand the true meaning of karma

The next part spoke volumes to my situation "Please baby, forgive me, mommy was young. Mommy was too busy tryna have fun. Now, I don't pat myself on the back for sending you back. Cause God knows I was better than that. To conceive you, then leave you, the concept alone seems evil" nobody walking this earth can tell me I'm not the reason my son is dead. I know I'm the reason.

If I wasn't so stuck on Kay seeing our child then I could've paid more attention. "I promise Yosohn is not better than you" he's probably looking down like 'why him? Why did you do right by him and not me' "not in anyway"

My feelings are just hurt. Kason has been heavy on my mind and now Kay isn't speaking to me. I don't know what to do. A bitch is a little sad.

Me: we need to talk

When she cheated on me I didn't ignore her bitch ass. I mean we didn't have kids so we had no reason to talk

The Other Parent: ion know what the fuck you and Jada got going on but one of y'all better be telling me about that bruise on my son arms

Me: that didn't happen with me so I don't know what happened... we need to talk about us

Jada was still lying about that bruise so that's her business. I'm keeping my mouth closed about it. She know she dead wrong.

The Other Parent: I want to leave you on read but I'm bored. You JUST had a baby and wasn't even letting me touch you but you let some baby dyke ass bitch fuck you? Opp vibes

Everything is a fucking opp vibe to her. Annoying as fuck.

Me: I let you & look at the dumb ass shit you did? You just rushed and treated me like I was a hoe or some