Flung out of space

Dare to loose my Anchor

Writer's POV:
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"In your light I learn how to love. In your beauty, how to make poems.
You dance inside my chest, where no one sees you,
but sometimes I do, and that light becomes this art."
••~Rumi

This was what Karishma was feeling right now. This person infront of her is her light, showing her the path towards life when her own family shut her down. She cannot be in danger! Why does The Universe smack her down when she tries to rise?!

Karishma's POV (cont):
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Hasee: The neurologist had done a CT scan & found a clot, & he suspects I might have had a hemorrhagic stroke!
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I couldn't believe what I just heard! Is it a bad dream?!

I jerked & held her more tightly now as if I might lose her which I cannot afford. She's my anchor & I don't want to drown anymore ! I started crying vigorously.....

"Kya...!! kya keh rehe hai Aap...! Aise kaise ho sakta hai ! Can you please describe with easier terms? Aur photo hai CT scan ka? I've known a neurologist here, about whom I told you earlier. I can send her the photos of your reports.

Hasee then wiped my tears by her fingers, then held my hand, entangled our fingers & said,

Hasee: Ssshhhhh... Don't panic Karu. Shant ho jaiye! The doctor said I had internal bleeding inside my head that's why there's a clot but it's very small. I'm not in danger. He prescribed me with Anti-hypertensive medicines to lower BP & also the injection to dissolve the clot.

Me: Oh my God, itna saab kuch hogaya aur aap aise baata rahe hai. That's why you were crying that day. Hume na aapne aap par aur gussa araha hai ki hum nehi hai waha aapke sath.

Hasee: Aap hai hamari sath, hamare dil mein. Baas aise humse gussa maat kijiye. Kya pata kal ho na ho !

Me: Chup.... hamara to aaj bhi hai aur kal bhi hai aapke saath.... kuch nehi hoga aapko. Dr ne kaha na itna serious nehi hai?

Hasee: Yes, he said so. Aur paata hai, wo injections lene ki waqt aapki yaad aati hai, kaise aap Miku ko injections deti thi...! He had prescribed the injections for 15 days aur uski baad clot dissolve ho jayega hopefully, so stop worrying.

Me: Hum kya hi bataye aapko samajh nehi aaraha hai. Lag raha hai ki ek pal mein puri duniya ujar gayi hamari. Aap baas thik ho jaiye. Aur kuch nehi hoga aapko, hum na aapko kuch hone hi nehi denge.... Aur dikhaiye hume woh injections kaha leti hai?

She then loosened her belt, tucked out her shirt a bit upwards & showed her abdomen. There were several small reddish & brownish spots on her skin showing the needle prick points. I ran my right hand on her skin very delicately, making a long face.

Me: Aise nishan par jaata hai injections ka?

Hasee: Yeh to chala jayega baad mein, who cares! The matter is, dard hota hai, tab lagta hai, aap hoti paas mein to hume hug karti, dard dur karne ki liye..

*How easily she described how important my existence is, in her life! I tried to gulp the pain as my throat was paining as I held back tears.

Me: Oh my poor Hasee. ACP Sir ko call karte hai, aur kehte hai hume training nehi karni. Chalte hai aapki saath.

Hasee: Don't do any stupidity Karu. I'm strong enough to handle my situations. Dekha, isi liye hum nehi batate aapko. You cannot see me in pain but pain is a part of life, sickness is a part of life. Aur paata hai, Ammi kaha karti thi ki,
agar hum sick hote hai toh gunah maaf ho jati hai, zaroor humne kuch kiya hoga, kisika dil toda hoga, issi liye yeh saab ho raha hai. Aap baas roiye maat.