Flung out of space

You make me better

Flashback continued in Karishma's POV:
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Me: So, what's your thought on 'love at first site' or on 'love'?

HM: well....... love at first site!
So many people have talked about it & felt it...so, it must be true. But it's not my cup of tea. Like I believe that it would never happen to me..

Me: what would never happen to you?

HM: jaise ki, hum kisise takra jaye aur unki akhon me kho jaye aur hume woh gana yaad yaad ajaye,

"I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms,
Barefoot on the grass
Listening to our favourite song...

-Perfect by Ed Sheeran"
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[Me in my head: Shit Karishma, isn't it that song which you sang when you first saw her?!]

HM: it's okay Karishma, I remember that you sang this for me, don't be embarrassed, when I wear that particular white formal shirt with sleeves half folded, this happens occasionally; people sing different songs. Paata hai, aapki Santosh ne kya gaya tha?

Me: Wait! Santosh ne bhi gana gaya tha?

HM: It's an instinct, it's not that I'm proud of it but this happens. Santosh sang, "Tauba tumhari ye ishare,
Hum to deewane hai tumhare"

Me: Santu ki maiya ki saasu maiya.... 😠 Uski to class lena parega aab.

HM: Itna gussa maat kijiye. Woh to achhi ladki hai.

Me: Kaunsi achhi ladki aisa karti hai apni senior ke liye?

HM: Accha choriye yeh sari baaton ko. How do you define 'Love'?

Me: Hume to hua nehi, toh thikse paata nehi. Lekin hume aisa lagta hai ki,

"-Jab pyar hota hai na, toh usme ganit nehi dekha jata hai.
-Toh usme agey piche ka kuch bhi dikhai nehi deta hai.
-Woh baas aapko paata chal jata hai.
-Unko dekhtehi baas paata chal jaata hai, ki yehi woh ek insan hai, jiski saath hum apni puri zindagi bitana chahte hai.
-Aur hamara saas chhute toh chhute lekin uus ek insan ka saath hume zindagi bhar kabhi chhutna nehi chahiye.
-Hamari liye toh pyar ki paribhasha yehi hai, baki log pyar ko kya samajhte hai, hume paata nehi"

HM: Wah Karishma, Aapko dekhke koi kahega nehi ki,
"Yeh kadak karishma ki piche ek narm dil insan hai"

Me: Woh saab chhoriye Aap, You didn't define what love is for you?

HM: well, for me 'LOVE' is fluid.
My personal interpretation of that phrase is that love's cup can run over one moment, and in the blink of an eye, it can just as suddenly dry right up.
I think I'm 'Demisexual'

Me: Pansexual suna tha par yeh demisexual kya hai?

HM: Demisexual means,
"A person who experiences sexual feelings and attraction only after developing a close emotional relationship and not on the basis of first impressions, physical characteristics, etc."

That's how dating and dealing with relationships, both platonically and romantically, personally tends to be for me.
Hum kisise bhi waise, I mean sexually attracted nehi hote jab tak hume unki saath koi mental bond na ho. Hamari liye rishta maaine rakhta hai, Unka gender nehi.

Before I realized and accepted that I'm a Demi, it was a frustrating dilemma that I was unable to pinpoint or fully understand as a hetero-girl who went on to date several times. I went along with what society had always said what was 'normal' and l handled it as best as I could during the course of my 'misadventures' in dating. Then eventually I discovered my truth and the world started to make a little more sense. That's it.

Me: hmmm....

HM: hmmm... Kya? Kuch to boliye?

Me: Bohot complicated hai aapki thinking bilkul anatomy ki tarha. Hamara hi easy hai, jispe dil agaya, woh hamara.

HM: Ek hi baat hai. You said it simply & I elaborated.

Me: Ek baat kaise?

HM: Kispe dil aata hai? Jiski saath hum emotionally connected hote hai.

Me: Paata nehi. Kya saab baatein leke beith gaye. Coffee kaisa laga?

HM: Aap to hume Delhi ki best of the best coffee hamesha hi khilati hai.
Aab hum ek gaana dedicate kare Aapki liye jaise aapne kiya?

Me: Ji zaroor.

Haseena called the waiter & requested to play the song,

'Better' by Anannya Birla

HM: toh Karu...

Me: stop, stop.. let me listen to the lyrics.
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Hmm.... Lines toh kaafi achhi hai. Which line do you want to dedicate to me?
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HM: There's a reason why
you make me,
You make me, you make me better
You make me so much better !

Me: Haseena, chalte hai abhi. Kafi der hogayi hai.

Waiter, bill please...!

HM: Karu, Kya hum bill pay kar sakte hai?

Me: Bilkul bhi nehi, yeh hamara date hai, hum ne plan kiya, hum hi denge bill.

HM: Thik hai, thik hai.

After paying the bill we went out of the cafe & again started cycling but this time, we were side by side. We went to a park.

Me: Are you enjoying it?

HM: Yes very much.

The sparkle in her eyes was saying that she's not lying. After 2 hours of cycling we reached a narrow uncrowded lane where I saw four boys who were laughing at us & yes they were not decent. Then I remembered that I didn't take the gun with me.

I said, "Haseena, chalte hai yaha se." But Haseena went far from me already.

She was already near them. I got a bit tensed. I speed up my cycle to reach her. Hume kuch bohot ganda vibe aaraha tha jaise ki kuch bura hone wala hai.....

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