Life Series Oneshots

I Can See You (Songfic)

Third Life

Martyn x Ren

Taylor Swift!

Martyn was standing outside by the front door of Dogwarts, practically begging the sand people to attack. He was so bored and his thoughts were not very good company. All he could think about was a certain king with sunglasses, and he was definitely not obsessed or in love. Suddenly, he heard someone coming down the path, and Martyn looked up to see the one person he definitely wasn't thinking about.

You brush past me in the hallway
And you don't think I, I, I can see ya, do ya?

Martyn watched as Ren walked by him, and the king only gave him a wink and a lopsided grin, but even that was enough to send Martyn's heart into overdrive. Martyn knew he shouldn't react like this, but a part of him hoped that Ren liked him too. He knew it was a hopeless effort, but he couldn't help but look at Ren. Martyn wasn't sure if Ren even noticed Martyn for just being himself. He knew the king was kind to him and was just his friend, but Martyn couldn't help but dream.

I've been watchin' you for ages
And I spend my time tryin' not to feel it

Martyn had tried to ignore his feelings for a while but to no avail. And a guy could dream, couldn't he? Martyn couldn't help but think, what if one day, when Ren passed him, he said something or reached out and grabbed his arm or kissed him.

But what would you do if I went to touch you now?
What would you do if they never found us out?
What would you do if we never made a sound?

Martyn thought that it was a stupid dream, but he could imagine things he could hope. That wasn't bad, right?

'Cause I can see you waitin' down the hall from me
And I could see you up against the wall with me
And what would you do, baby, if you only knew?
That I can see you.

Martyn knew that Ren was a closed off person, and even Martyn, who knew him best, was mostly in the dark about the king's true feelings. Martyn and Ren had always been friends, but Martyn couldn't help but want more. But in the past few weeks, Ren had been way more open with his hand, and Martyn hoped that this was a step in his favor.

And we kept everything professional
But something's changed, it's somethin' I, I like

The worst part about Martyn's crush on Ren was the watchers. The watchers hated Martyn, and they hurt anyone he cared for. He was friends with Grian, so they took him as a watcher near the end of EVO, then put him in charge of the games. He didn't want Ren to get hurt because of the watchers, so that was why he had kept his distance, but now the feelings were winning.

They keep watchful eyes on us
So it's best that we move fast and keep quiet.

Martyn could only imagine what he wanted to happen, so that's what he did.

You won't believe half the things I see inside my head

He wished he could hug Ren and provide a shoulder to lean on when he needed it. He wished that Ren could come to him if he needed help. He wished that he could tell Ren he was beautiful and kind and caring and all the good things about him. Martyn wished that he could stargaze with him and run his fingers through Ren's soft hair. And more than anything else, he wished that he could just tell him the truth. He loved Ren, and if he didn't tell Ren soon, it would probably be too late.

Wait 'til you see half the things that haven't happened, yet.

Martyn sighed and realized that it was actually quite late. He had been standing by the gate for at least an hour, maybe more. All because of Ren. Martyn sighed angrily and rubbed at his eyes. He couldn't go back inside Dogwarts now he was committed to staying outside now. Martyn began to walk, hurrying over to the small hill inside the wall. He sat down and began to observe the sky, his thoughts still spiraling.