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Lifetime (Ricky Horror)

TW: Death (also, side note, this work does contain lyrics from Lifetime by Three Days Grace, it's a great song. Highly recommend you listen to it.)

Called to say hello, your voice always takes the pain away

I had always turned to Ricky whenever I had had a bad day, which back then was often. I struggled a lot, but he understood me, and I loved him for it. We had known each other for years, we laughed together, cried together, and grew closer. We wanted to get married and make a home together, each of us pursuing our dreams.

The thought is unimaginable, That I saw you for the last time and didn't know

The band was going on tour in Europe, so of course everyone was rushing to the airport. I was the unofficial driver of the van because someone had to bring it back. I stayed with the guys up until they had to board the plane. Right before he got on, Ricky enveloped me in a hug, kissed me, and told me not to miss him too much. They would be home in 3 weeks. I watched him board the plane whole and well and then went home. I was cooking dinner with the news on when I heard the announcement. A plane had malfunctioned and gone down in the middle of the sea. There were no survivors as of yet. That plane was the one the band had been on.

Now I'm walking 'round in a haze, There's no color, only darker shades of gray

I felt numb. I waited days after the accident, hoping against hope that he would be alive. There were no survivors after three days. I felt like there was no meaning to anything. Friends and family reached out, but they had never been there in the first place. Fans made memorials of the band and individual members, but none of them truly knew the guys. None of them truly knew my Ricky.

You showed me the way when I was lost and alone, But you never really showed me how to let you go, Who do I talk to when I wanna talk to you?

Ricky was the best man in my life, the one I could always talk to. He made me smile, he made me laugh, and most of all, he cared about me when no one else did. I talked to him every single day, whether it was over FaceTime or in person, just to share because he was always willing to listen. But do you do when the person who was your whole world is gone?

I thought I'd have you for a lifetime, Have you for a lifetime, Never again, Never again, Will I look into the only eyes that knew me, Feels like a bullet right through me

One day it finally hit me and I crumpled to the floor in tears. I sobbed endlessly, my chest aching as my heart felt like it would break. I held my knees to my chest as I repeated over and over again, "We were supposed to get married, buy a big house and get loads of dogs, and we would be happy." I would never see those blue eyes full of love, or his sweet smile, or feel the warmness of his touch. I wouldn't get to talk to him everyday or share jokes and stories. No one would ever come close to what he did for me. But what could I do when the person I loved was forever lost beneath the sea.

You were the one that I wasn't supposed to lose, I thought I'd have you for my lifetime, Have you for a lifetime