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Thirty Three

A gasp escapes my lips as I try to run back into the elevator, but it closes before I can. Oh god, no. Maybe after I've brought Kaiden to get some food, I can ask the front desk what rooms he's in.

"We can see what room he's in after." Kaiden soothes me as if he read my thoughts.

The last thing I needed was for my parents and 'boyfriend' to be in the hospital at the same time. So many negative thoughts are bypassing my mind. Of course I'm going to worry about him.

And to think, I said I hated him. What if the last thing we ever did was fight? I begin to walk faster to the cafeteria. The quicker we get there, the quicker Kaiden can eat and the quicker I can go check on Jack.

When I saw him on that bed, his eyes shut and his eyelashes fanned on his cheeks, I've come to realize that this man, or boy, whatever, he tends to flip in between, has become my everything. I hate being like this.

I literally just said I hated him today and now look at me. I'm in a hospital panicking more over Jack than my actual parents. Though, I know my parents are okay, but what about Jack?

I take a seat at a table as Kaiden goes and gets his food. I feel like I need to throw up, I'm so anxious and nervous. My day has flipped in ways I didn't even know were possible.

"He's going to be okay." Kaiden says as he approaches me with a tray.

My eyebrows furrow, "how do you know?" I snap, and I don't mean to.

"I don't. I'm just trying to comfort you." He shrugs. "You're pale and you look so worried. Go, I'll be fine on my own." He says, pulling out his phone.

Ah, young teens. I abruptly get up from the chair. It's only been what? Ten minutes since the run in at the elevator. I'm sure they'll get all of his information. I speed walk to the lobby and front desk.

"What room is Jack Gilinsky staying in?" I heavily breathe.

"Family only." The lady says to me.

"I'm his girlfriend." I semi-lie.

Hell, I don't even know if that is a lie.

"Sorry, another girl checked in for his room under that." She gives me an apologetic, side smile.

My heart stops completely for the second time today. Is it Auburn? How could she have gotten contacted quicker than and before me?

"There's no way I can get in? I'm close to him. I even have his number-" I start, but she cuts me off.

"Only one person is allowed in there." She sighs.

"Do you know when I could go see him or something?" I rush my words.

She purses her lips, "I guess we can make an exception since I can tell he means a lot to you."

You have no idea.

I bite my top lip as she gives me the room information. I practically sprint up the stairs, not bothering to take the elevator. I look past each room, reading each number and counting up until I see his.

Jack's room door is shut and I don't want to go in. I know I'll see her. Auburn. And I don't want to. I take slow steps and a deep breath, knocking quietly and then opening the door. She's sitting in the chair, next to his bed, holding his hand in hers.

Needles and wires all hooked up onto him. He's awake and relief washes over me as I hear his weak and confused voice. Thank god he's not in a coma. He woke up and I hope he didn't break anything.

"Who's that?" He asks.

Auburn turns her head to look at me, her hair going to the side effortlessly and flawlessly.

"Your neighbor?" She replies, confused.

My eyebrows raise at her words.

"You can't be in here." Jack says to me and my heart pinches.

But I want to be in here. I ignore his stupid words and walk closer to his bed. Even in the hospital he looks amazing. This white light is really making him glow-

"Can I talk to her alone, quickly?" Jack asks Auburn.

She nods her head and he squeezes her hand before she gets up to leave the room. Man, I hate seeing them together. It makes my insides twist in an awful way. I sit down on the chair, giving him a small smile. I feel so bad.

"I know I wasn't the first one-"

"Why weren't you the one I woke up to?" He interrupts me, his eyebrows furrowing.

"I tried getting your information from the front desk! I saw you being rolled into the elevator! And I tried telling the lady that I was close to you, but she claimed that someone else came in as your 'girlfriend'." I say, at the brink of tears.

Why is this so damn hard to see him like this? His facial features soften as his hand goes to reach over to mine. Oh no, it's not supposed to be like this. He can't have two toys at the same time. I quickly snatch my hand away.

I sigh, "I'm sorry, I just- I don't know- I can't do this if you're with her." I say, referring to Auburn.

It's been a day since I saw them together and they're taking things quite quickly. I know why; because they've had a long last and they both loved each other at one point. It isn't easy being in this position.

"I understand." He murmurs and I'm shocked.

Well. That wasn't the answer I was expecting. I thought he was going to say something like 'I only love you' or 'I want you more than her', but no. He just hit me with that and now I don't know what to do. Do I leave?

I stand from the chair, breathing in a sharp breath through my nose, "bye Jack. I love you." I say, wiping the tears that had fallen and begin walking towards the door.

"Camila." I hear his stupid voice, but I ignore him and keep walking.

We keep pushing each other away; it's not meant to be.

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