Can't Fight This Feeling 1

CFTF 49: Pamilya

I can't breathe. I can't think straight. Where is DJ? What is going on? I shouldn't have left him that morning. I shouldn't have made him go through it again by himself. I was selfish. These are all my fault. I didn't think of his feeling. All I could think of is me, and now he is gone. Again. I closed my eyes tight. All I can hear were faint calls. Someone's calling my name, I can hear him. DJ is calling my name...  DJ is calling my name.  He's here.  He's back.... and everything went black. Everything went quite.

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(Dwaine)

"Hijo, hindi sa pinangungunahan kita, hanggang kelan mo titiisin ang asawa mo?"  Hanggang kelan ko nga ba titisiin na hindi makita ang babaeng mahal ko. Biglang nagsalita si Donnie sa likuran ko.

"Mom, I think I've heard this statement before, minus the hijo and the asawa part. Hahaha!"  Mabuti pa sila maganda ang usapan nila. Mabuti pa sila.

"Drake!  Will you stop being a smart aleck?  I am trying to make a point here."  I get her point, ang hindi ko ma-get ay ang point ng utak ko, kung bakit ako mukhang tangang umalis, iniwan ko siya, tapos ngayon kakaba-kaba ako na parang bakla.... mabuti pa nga ang bakla, may guts, may balls... Ako?  Naiwan ko yata nung gabing may mangyari sa amin ni Mack.  Hindi na ito imaginations ko lang.  Nakakasiguro na akong may nangyari nga sa amin ni Mack... the truth?  I want to go home. I wanna be with her.  I want to take of her, pero heto at mukhang tangang nagtitiis sa lamig dito sa Vancouver. Paano kung nagbunga yon? Hindi niya kakayaning mag-isa.  Hindi ko kakayaning wala ako doon para sa kanya.  At kung sakaling magbunga man isang gabing yun, hindi ko siguro matitiis na hindi ko makita ang unti-unting paglaki ng tiyan niya, ang baby namin sa loob ng tiyan niya, ang makatabi ko uli siya.....  Hay, tanga lang, Deej?!

"Hey, bro, what's with the long face?"  Ginulo niya buhok ko pagkalapit niya sa akin. "Ano na naman ba ang sinisermon ni Mama sa iyo?"  Tanong ni Donnie. Anak siya ni Tita Kelsey asawa ni Tito Ben. Sasagot na sana akong nang biglang may nagsalita mula sa likuran ko.

"Good afternoon boys!  Good afternoon, honey."  Sabay niyang halik sa pisngi ng kanyang asawa pagkatapos niya akong tapikin sa balikat at lampasan. "What are you guys talking about?"  Dugtong pa niya.

"Dad.. Mama is trying to scare Richardson here."  Bakit ba hanggang ngayon ay Richardson pa rin ang tawag niya sa akin.

"Donnie, leave him alone. And stop calling him that. Maka-Richardson ka wagas."  Tatawa-tawang hinalikan uli si Tita Kelsey sa noo.

"Ano nang nangyari doon sa client mo, Don? Nagkasundo na ba kayo sa choice of furniture and fixtures para mga units nila?" Tanong ni Tito Ben sa anak.

"Hindi pa nga dad, eh. I am a little puzzled. This client is somewhat mysterious. They are in a hurry to finish all the units, in which we did, but they won't give me their choices of furniture and fixtures let alone which company they want to get the supply from. It's irking me right now. I can't move on to my next project. This lady gives me the set back." Nakakunot ang noong kwento niya sa kanyang daddy, kay Tito Ben.

"You may need to step up on your game, Don. Call for a meeting with her. Be firm. Be assertive, but be gentle." suggest ni Tito.

"I did call for a meeting already but I haven't heard anything back." Sagot ko. Oo, tumutulong ako sa kanyang kompanya. Pang part time lang para may konting kita habang nandito at hindi ko na kunan ang ipon ko. Kung sakali mang magbuntis si Mack at least may pera nang nakalaan para sa kanilang ng magiging anak ko. Pero sana meron nga.

"Deej, are you okay?" Deej? Ngayon ko lang uli narinig yun ah, pero galing pa sa maling bibig. Naalala ko na naman si Mack. Oh how I misses her.