An arranged marriage || M.E

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Matts POV

I laid on the hospital bed waiting for a god damn doctor to check out my hand. I'm pretty sure it's broken considering the fact that it's all bruised. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to punch the wall, but I new that if I didn't I most likely would've hurt Kim, and I'm done with hurting her.

I don't understand why I'm always being such an asshole to her. I know I love her, I know that she's all I want but it's just so hard to show her all the emotions I feel towards her sometimes.

I just wanna be done with hurting her so much. I don't want Lindsay or Alison, I just go to them when I don't have Kim. And somehow when me and Kim are good I kinda go to Lindsay.

But Lindsay isn't the one I want, she's just a hoe I go to when I want to fuck and that's it. Kim is the girl I want to show everything too, but it's so hard to when I always get mad at her.

I think I always get mad because I'm just so in love with her it's hard to show all my love to her.

Is that weird?

"Dude, what happened up there?" Carter asked breaking the silence. I looked up at him still not saying anything. I mean I don't know where to start.

"Matt" he asked shaking me. I rolled my eyes groaning loudly in annoyance and in pain. "We argued, I tried to get her back, she said she doesn't want me, so I smashed my fist against the wall" I summarized it for him.

"Damn" he mumbled looking down. "And I kinda called her a skank" I mumbled looking down. "Dude, you know about her past" he said with wide eyes. "I know, I know, I just got so mad it slipped out"

(To those who forgot, Kim's teacher sexually assaulted her everyday, while calling her a skank, Which caused the whole school to call her that, so that word hurts her really badly when someone calls her a skank)

"You better buy her a teddy bear and flowers" Carter said while sliding down his chair. "We aren't dating Carter, plus she doesn't want me anymore" I said looking away from him.

"She's lying to you. She wants you matt, she's just to scared to get back with you"

I thought about it for a moment realizing what he said was probably true. If I was her I would be to scared to trust me again too.

I should just take things slow with her, maybe if I flirt, and buy her things, and show all my attention to her, she might not be scared to come back with me.

"You're right dude, thanks" I said with a smile. He nodded his head with a proud expression on his face. I couldn't help but laugh a little.

"Hi I'm doctor Williams, I'll be checking you out today, what's the problem?" A man said while walking into the room.

I looked over at him and down at my hand. "I think I broke my hand"I managed to say. Hopefully he doesn't ask how I managed to do that. "How did you manage to do that?" He asked.

Wow just great!

"I slammed my fist against the wall" I said embarrassed. He looked up at me with a small chuckle. I couldn't help but roll my eyes.

Damn what's up with me and rolling my eyes.

"Alright, let me just take a look" he said grabbing my hand. I winched in pain a bit, trying to just suck it up like a man.
"It's not broken, it's just really bruised, I'll give you some pain medication for that" he said.

I nodded my head in relief getting up from the bed. "Do I just wait here until you bring it?" I asked. "Yes, I'll be back in 5 minutes" he said before walking off.