135 (Capital Steez)

34• Cyber Worlds

We came back from T Mobile and Steez bought 2 phones.

"Alright. This is your phone now." He handed it to me. "You can't call anyone back home. Promise me you won't."

"Promise." I took the box.

It felt weird having a phone again. It's not that big of a deal now because I can't access my social media accounts or call anyone but Steez so I guess it's just whatever.

"Steez can you please set this up for me?" I asked.

"Sure." He came over and took the box and helped me.

I chuckled. "Why do you have a flip up phone and I have an iPhone?"

"They can't track a flip up and it'll be easier for me to take orders through the phone because..." He waited for me to answer.

"Because they can't track it." I said.

"Exactly. You're a good listener." He smiled.

"They can track an iPhone though." I chewed my tongue.

"Yes but they think you're just another person with a phone. Not a runaway teen."

"Oh ok..." My voice trailed. "I can finally listen to music though."

He chuckled. "I forgot about how much you love music."

"How did you know first of all?"

"Your little sidekick told me when I first got there. You sumin special. Beautiful and talented. I like that."

I smiled shyly. "Well ok."

•

   I get bored easily. Even before all this happened I was bored. Sometimes I feel like I'm done with life. Like...I don't know what to do. I always ask myself:

What now?

Or

After this...then what? What are your going to do? What are you doing now?

   I hate it. Do you ever wish that you could turn your thoughts off? Do you ever wish that you would go to sleep and never wake up? I do. Sometimes. Ever since I ran away I've been in this deep depression like life moving slowly and everything in my life stopped. I miss my Dad and how annoying his singing is.
   I'm wrong. Running away was wrong. My Dad doesn't deserve this, my brother doesn't either. My Dad didn't do anything for me to run away and I feel selfish. When I got in the car with Steez I was thinking about myself. That's it, I think I'm gonna-

"Steph you alright?" Steez asked from across the room while frowning.

"Yeah why?"

"You were like...gone..."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

Steez rolled his eyes and scoffed. "Stephanie I know how to read you. What's wrong?"

"Nothing..." I messed with a pillow on the bed, the fabric was rough and looked old like your grandmothers couch. "Just homesick again. I can't believe we're really like...doing this. This some lifetime movie shit."

Steez laughed. "I know right! This is crazy! I'm actually going around the east coast with my girlfriend. Isn't it nice?"

I nodded my head. "Yeah...yeah it's the dream." I said without enthusiasm.

He shook me. "I'm so happy you're here with me! Steph you a real one. I'm lucky to have you."

I shook my head. "No, I'm lucky to have you." I starred off into space.

"Imma go take a shower alright?"

"Mhm."

   He went into the bathroom and I got back on the computer on the desk. I don't want to search anything up on my phone about Virginia. I don't want to risk it.

Va news.

I typed into the search engine. I clicked on the first website.