Insecure

We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts.

Send My Love To Your New Lover - Afuckingdele

Harry's POV-

I felt bad, I didn't want Sara to see me like that. All bruised up from some bitchfight with my best friend. 

Louis understood why I left Lottie, he apologized for hitting me but I told him I would of done the same thing for Gemma.

"What's this party for anyways?" I ask.

"Little brother turned 18, he says he's bringing a really special girl so you fuckers let him get his game on without breaking his balls." Liam says as he points around at us.

"Whoa that little dude has more game then you know." I hold my hands up defensively, Liam's brother and I have unresolved issues that none of the guys know about. "I don't plan on being here with a bunch of horny 18 year olds anyways." I add and Louis nods.

"There's a game on tonight, wanna go get some wings and shit until it dies down?" Louis asks and I nod. "What about you lad?" He asks Niall.

"Nah, I'll hang around. Maybe get lucky." Niall says winking as I shake my head.

"Come on, We'll take the Audi." I inform Louis as I walk out to the garage.

"So tell me about this lass." Louis says after sitting down in the passenger seat. 

"She's amazing Tommo,  she's smart and beautiful but a bit insecure which I find endearing. It's like she doesn't know she's beautiful but that's what makes her beautiful to me you know?" I ramble. 

"You sound like some boy band song man, what the fuck?" He muses.

"It's just what she does to me, I've never felt this way before. You know I've always been a skeptic since Olivia." I shrug.

"I still feel bad about that man, I had no clue." He says with his voice full of guilt. 

"It's fine Louis, it was a lifetime ago." I assure him.

"She gave shit blowjobs for the record." He says and I bust up with laughter. We pull up to the wing place and are seated quickly before ordering. "You seem so much happier, like something just switched in your mind."

"I feel happier, I feel like I can't keep this grin off my fucking face." I chuckle as Louis shakes his head laughing. 

"She may be my sister man but what she did was wrong, you're my bestfriend and nothing will change that." Louis assures me and I nod. 

We spend hours eating wings and screaming at the games that we don't actually really care about. By 11 I checked my phone so see a text from Liam marked two hours ago.

"You need to get back here ASAP."

**

Sara's POV-

"Are you ok babe?" Emily whispers as we walk into the house. 

"Yea, I'm fine. I'm with my best friend and the hottest guy in school." I shrug.

Liar.

She gives me a knowing nod. "Want a drink?" She asks.

"Please."

"Sara this is my brother Liam, Liam this is my girl Sara." Nathan introduces us as Liam's eye's go wide.

"I'm not his girl." I state indifferently. 

"Not yet at least." Nathan says smirking. "I'll be right back." He whispers before leaving me with Liam.

"Does Harry know you're here?" Liam asks with concern.

"He has a girlfriend, why the fuck would he care about me?" I snap.

"Sara it isn't like that-"

"Save it Liam, I don't give a fuck and neither does he." I say before storming off and finding Emily in the kitchen. 

"Whoa girl, slow down." She says as I grab a drink and down it before grabbing the other and doing the same. 

"He fucking lied to me Emily." I state coldly. 

"I don't know what to say babe." She says softly and I roll my eyes. 

Nothing could cure the mood I'm in so I might as well get drunk, After grabbing and downing two more glasses I see Nathan walking around.

"Hey Sara, come dance with me?" Nathan asks finally finding us. 

"I'd love to." I reply with a smile, deciding to put everything aside and trying to have a good night. 

Nathan leads me out to the dance floor, his hand feels warm and friendly.

But it doesn't feel like his.

I place my hands on his shoulders as he grips my hips and begins to move us along to the beat, he's not too tall, maybe just a few inches taller then me with my heels on. Sighing I close my eyes and lean my head against his shoulder as he wraps his arms around me tightly. I tried to adjust to the feeling of his body against mine.

But it doesn't feel like his.

After the few songs the alcohol finally kicks in and I become looser, more carefree. Nathan bites his lip as I begin to roll my body against his, his fingers dig into the flesh of my hips before trailing down to my ass. 

Before I knew it he was leaning down, pressing his lips against mine, he trails a hand up and cradles my neck to deepen the kiss as our lips mold together. His lips were warm and soft.

But it doesn't feel like his.

He used you Sara, he's had a girlfriend for years. He doesn't actually want you. My brain tells me but my heart feels otherwise. It's too much to deal with and last time I trusted my heart to the wrong man so right now I'm trusting my brain.

And Nathan. 

His hands roam my body greedily as our lips work together, I can feel his arousal against me and I knew there was no turning back. 

"Do you wanna get out of here?" I whisper, he nods as he bites his lip. "I just need to find Emily and tell her I'm leaving."

"Ok babygirl, meet me in the kitchen." He whispers before walking off. 

I searched the party for what seemed like forever, it had to be at least a half hour before I gave up and set off to the kitchen to find Nathan but what I didn't expect to see was him between some blonde's legs kissing her. He pulls her down and leads her out the back door with his hand under her skirt exposing her naked ass. 

Alrighty then.