Homicidal, self harm and abuse trigger warning
Sangwoos POV
11 years ago.
Dear diary,
Today was not a great day. Someone asked me what my worst fear was, there was only one problem, I don't really have a common fear like bugs or heights, the thing that I am most afraid of is myself. Sometimes I go into this mode where I really want to hurt everyone I see around me. I try to have good set control but its really hard its like a invisible force dragging me and I have to use all of my strength in my whole body not to get up and satisfy my increasing hunger for blood. I just can't help it. I cry myself to sleep every night wishing I could be normal and have normal thoughts like everyone else my age. I am so tired, I can't do this anymore, I know that if I was gone that I couldn't hurt anyone, if only I could just disappear.
yoonbums POV
11 years ago.
Dear diary,
I have bruises all over my body, my ribs poke out whenever I take my shirt off, my wrists are shredded and its gotten to the point where all I can wear out is turtle necks and long pants and even then the bruises on my face cannot be hidden. Its like i don't even matter to him, only because he liked my mother, if only he wasn't my uncle, if only my parents where alive. would it matter if i just was gone one day, surely he wouldn't miss me. maybe I would be better off dead.
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His Recovery
FanfictionSangwoo was sent to a mental hospital after Yoonbum called the police on him. But has is helped or will he slowly slip back into his old ways? Or is murder just too addictive.
